It's a product of my anxiety, of my longingness to something that I don't even know...
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"For today's playlist, is going to be your favorite original song created by our very own from the music club. Well we all know that people in the music club are really creative and full of talents."
Lunch time. At lagi naman talaga silang nagpapatugtog ng mga kanta and most likely all of them are covers from Music Club. This time it's different... it's going to be an original song.
"Di ka sumali?" Katabi ko nga pala si Cana. Umiling lang ako sa tanong niya. Umiinom lang sya ng paborito niyang gatas. She ignore me after that. She really love my company even though we don't actually talk. And I am surprised that we understand each other with few words.
Kakain na sana ako then biglang nag-play ang isang piano. This tune... is very very familiar. I know this song but... It was a different piano effect then biglang may guitar. Nang may lyrics na, that left my mouth open.
Wolves are watching me
All they want is to cut my breathing
They're the cause of my first collapse
This is the aftermath
Napabitaw ako sa kutsara ko na may lamang cereal. Hinanap agad ng mata ko kung nasaan ang pinsan ko at napailing. She looks so happy there on their table.
"Anong problema?" Tanong ni Cana. Nararamdaman ko ang sobrang inis ko na hindi ko alam kung inis pa ba to. Nakakapanikip ng dibdib. Galit to... galit.
"Malaki." Napalunok ako, trying to conceal my broken voice because of what I feel.
"Are you mad?" Tumingin ako kay Cana. Hindi ko alam kung sasabihin ko ba sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Wala akong mapaglagyan.
I needed you to surround the whole of me
Foolishly waiting for hours and now it's nearly morning
The wolves are wearing me down I need to change the fact that...
I need you now, I'm not shutting you out
I need you now, I'm not shutting you out.
And my tears fall down.
"Are you affected by the song?" I nod. Of course, it's my song! It's my composition!!! It's my own work that we used to sing together every summer. "First time hearing it? It's everyone's favorite." Nanlaki mata ko.
"What do you mean?"
"It's been playing since then. Before you came... I think since I was freshmen." I wiped my tears. Cana is really good as an informant.
Tumayo ako at naglakad papunta sa table nina Yana. I don't care who are these beautiful people sitting with her. I need to talk to her.
Nang marating ko ang table nila, they stopped talking and focused on me.
"Yana. Let me talk to you for a minute." She looked at me in surprise. Pero mukhang wala syang pakealam na alam ko na ang ginawa niya, at mukhang nay hula na sya kung tungkol saan ang pag-uusapan namin.
"Why? Is it important?"
"Gusto mo bang dito ko na mismo sabihin?" Galit na galit ako and I am surprise that I can still supress this anger inside me. If she gets hard on this, I don't know what I will do. She narrowed her eyes.
"Wait who is this girl? Do you know her?"
"Are you a fan?"
"Uh... maybe she's a fan." Usapan ng mga kasama niya na lalong nagpainis sakin. Nadagdagan lang nila ang galit ko.
"Okay fine. I'll tell you. She's my cousin. And that song that is playing right now is my own composition and she said that it's her own." Nagulat silang lahat sa sinabi ko. Pati ang mga katabi nilang table ay na-overheard kami. Hindi ko sya hahayaang nakawin ang gawa ko. It's a product of my anxiety, of my longingness to something that I don't even know and she doesn't understand that.
Napatayo sya at sinampal ako dahil abot naman niya.
"How dare you?!" I slap her quickly.
"HOW.DARE. YOU?!" I shouted at her. Tumulo na naman ulit ang mga luha ko. Siya naman ay hinawakan ang pisngi niyang nasampal ko.
"Ang kapal ng mukha mong makitira sa amin tapos ganito lang ang igaganti mo sakin?" And she's giving me a different story now.
"Alyana. Wala akong pakialam sa isusumbat mo sakin. Ang gusto ko, aminin mo sa mga tao ang ninakaw mo sakin." Mahina kong sabi.
"What is happening here?" Napatingin kami sa dereksyon ng mga bagong dating. Ang Fremenger brothers - yung kambal particularly, si Grayson, Si Lilania at si Cerium na agad lumapit kay Yana.
"Oh my... what happened here?" Tanong niya sa mga babaeng kasama ni Yana sa table. Then Cerium Clair look at me from head to toe. "What's your problem? Ikaw ba ang nanggugulo dito?" Pinigilan ko ang sarili kong masagot sya.
"Hey... what happened?" Lumapit samin si kuya Craeyon. Kasi alam kong sya yun. "Wala bang sasagot?" Nakarinig ako ng palakpak... galing sa likod ko. Napatingin kaming lahat at nakita ko si Cana na palapit samin.
"Actually sir Craeyon... that woman, HER song played just now... you know the song entitled Wolves." Confuse naman ang mga bagong dating. Wala namang gustong magsalita sa canteen. "And all of these people just found out that... that Yana is a fraud. The song is originally made by her cousin, Cerium."
"What?" To her disappointment... "Is that true?" Yana ran out of the canteen after being asked by the president of the music club.
"I... just want her to confess. It's my song. I have proof, I have my drafts and ... I have musical notes for this song." I sob. I think I was too weak to cry in front of these people. Hindi ko kayang tumagal pa ng isang oras para lang aminin niya na akin ang kantang yun. Every song that I wrote is part of me and I can't let someone take it away from me.
Nakaramdam ako ng pat sa ulo ko.
"Shh... we'll look at it further so that you can have your song back. Okay?" I just nod. Napatingin ako kay kuya Craeyon and he look so worried about me. I look at kuya Creiyon, and they have the same look. Bigla namang nag-walk-out si Cerium Clair. I think she's going to follow Yana.
"Thank you Canary." Sabi ni kuya Craeyon. "Continue your lunch everyone." Sabi niya sa lahat. "You too." Bumalik kami ni Cana sa upuan namin.
"So you can create a song?" I just nod and continue eating kahit na sobrang sama sa pakiramdam ng nangyari. "Do you think they will let that go? That song is actually the campus's favorite." She became talkative for today. Pero okay na din, nasa tamang oras sya, no one will actually explain what happen, even me I guess, but then she's there... she save me there.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Bridge
Teen FictionCerium lost interest in life after her parents died in an accident. She was sent to live together with her aunt. She was enrolled in a prestigious school where she met the elites of a music club that would make her life run like a song and will lead...
