The Bridge

Chapter 10

In an instant, naging member ako ng music club dahil sa authority ni kuya Craeyon. It's kinda curse and a blessing at the same time. It's a curse because I will be on the same club as my cousin who stole my piece. A blessing as I am starting to do the things that I love, again. Slowly but indeed surely.

Sa ngayon, patago akong bumibisita sa music club pag may time ako since member na ako. Binigyan ako ni kuya Craeyon ng badge para makapasok. The technology of this school never failed to amuse me. Lahat ng member ng music club ay may badge to enter, non-members of the club needs approval from one of the officer to get a guest access badge.

Member na nga ako ng club pero di pa alam ng mga members since hindi pa ako inintroduce at request ko din na wag muna not until I am ready. Hndi ko alam kung sino-sino na ang napagsabihin ni kuya Craeyon, that's the thing that I am least concern about. Yung tungkol naman sa composition ko, it was retreived. Nakapangalan na sakin ang kantang ako naman talaga ng composer. Hindi na muna yun pinatugtog sa campus because of the issue. Kuya Craeyon said it will be played again as original arrangement which made me happy and excited. Imagine, ma-i-p-play na sya as  a band performance which is the original arrangement of the song. 

I am thankful for everything. Ang nangyari naman kay Yana, imbis na tanggalin sya, binawasan ang title or position na meron sya, She used to be one of the singers and composers, but now, she's only part of the singer. She can play instruments but not that skilled enough kaya naniwala silang ako talaga ang composer. 

Sigurado akong mas lumaki ang galit sakin ng pinsan ko dahil sa nangyari, di kami nagkikita sa bahay nila, and for me that's a relief. Kase pag nakikita ko sya mas sumasama lang yung mood ko towards her. The way she act, parang ako pa ang may kasalanan. I don't get it. 

For now, I am enjoying what I have, hangga't wala pa yung anxiety ko. Crazy right?

"Hey, are you okay?" since that day na nalaman ng lahat na ako ang composer ng paborito nilang kanta, Cana became more open to me than the first time that she did. 

"Yeah." Thankful din ako sa existence niya. I don't have a lot of friends but her, beside me, she became enough. 

Nasa canteen kami ngayon kase breaktime. She always have her favorite milk. Tapos milk tea naman sakin. We always do this, silent and just as it is. 

"Mag-c-cr lang ako tapos dederecho na ako sa room. See you there." After she said those words, she left. Nasanay na ako sa actions niya she's always commanding. Dati nga umaalis na lang yun tapos di nagpapaalam, Ganun na talaga yata ang nakasanayan niya kaya siguro wala syang group of friends. She looks fine tho, but maybe people are having a hard time understanding her. Maybe we're just the same that's why I kinda understand her. 

Nawala ako sa pag-iisip ko nang marinig ko ang mga estudyante. They're like whispering, actually, murmuring. 

Napatingin ako sa entrance ng cafeteria. That's why... the elites of music club is here. Actually madaming elite sa school na to, like every club, I just choose my bias since I am not really interested to others. That's not my story to tell. 

From here, nakikita ko ang kambal, si kuya Craeyon at Creiyon, Si Graeson, si Rick... well, madali kaseng tandaan yung name niya, at si Frances. I don't know how these guys made themselves but they look cool together. Parang they are meant to be friends with each other. They look perfect. Tamang tanaw lang ako dito. 

"Hays, eto talaga kumukumpleto ng araw ko..."
"Yeah... Seeing them together as a group not in performance hits different." 

Na-overheard ko yung usapan ng nasa kabilang table. See, people are into them! Na-i- star struck pa dina ko sa kanila pag nakikita ko sila, I just shrug. I don't want to be obvious like them and besides, maririnig ko din naman yung mga kanta ni Frances.