N.R/S.J And W.M/E.O x daughter one shots

Never-Tw

Age: 16

Mamma: Scarlett Johansson
Dad:Ryan Reynolds
Step-dad: Colin jost
Step mom: Blake lively

Aunt's: Elizabeth Olsen, Fenan Sloan and Vanessa Johansson.

Uncles: all parents brothers and Robbie Arnett.

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Never. used for so many things yet only one meaning.

Never would I ever. Never her. Never not her. He never turned up. I could never. I never meant to hurt you. Never mind. Never say never. She never kissed him. He would never do that. It will never be the same.

Never never never never never. Things I'd never do is what's carved into my arm. 

Never was what i promised mom when we talked about sex.

Never was what i promised dad when we talked about liking girls.

Never was what i promised my aunt Lizzie when talking about self harm.

Never was what i promised my uncle robbie about crimes.

Never was what i promised Colin when talking about becoming Jewish.

Never is what I promised Blake when she asked me to not ask Taylor for pictures.

Never never never never.
Replay it. Replay the promised y/n.

You know the promises you made.
Never. Never. Never. Never.
That's the promises you made. It should be easy enough.

I take a deep breath and look at the picture on my phone.
Taylor looked so happy with me. Blake wouldn't mind surely.
Right?

And Taylor could've said no. But she didn't she was so nice.

But she noticed. Taylor noticed my struggling. She had that specific look in her eyes.
A look that was saying 'im here for you' or maybe I'm dreaming.

Everything seems surrealistic nowadays.

My arms are stinging. And my fingers are tingling from clutching my phone. And my thumb hovers over the call button on my grandmother's phone number.

It would be cruel to call her and say goodbye just to let myself fall from the bridge..... Wouldn't it?
god I'm a cruel person. I can't even hold my promises.

I can imagine my mom's face when she hears I had sex and my dad's face when he hears it's with a girl.

And I could only fear Robbie's face when I told him I got arrested for shoplifting.

all of them with their own version of disappointment.

Dads extremely angry and thin mouth. Mom's sigh and desperation to look away from me. Blake's tears. Colin's downwards mouth. Aunt Elizabeths scrunched together eyebrows. Uncle Robbie's constant touching of his curly beard.

Suddenly i feel my phone vibrate. A big picture of Chris Evans pops up. I drag the green telephone across the screen and suddenly his face popped up. I hadn't registered that he wanted a face time.

"Hey flap-pants"

A small smile may have creeped onto my face..

"When are you coming home? I'm here and I really want to bother my favorite kid. Actually Alba is here to bt she's doing heaven knows what with your mom"

I froze upon hearing that.
A tear ran down my face.

"Hey hey hey. What's wrong."

I wiped my face.

"I'm the worst daughter. Worst niece too"
I cry out. The face I had previously wiped dry was now wet again.

"Why do you think that honey?"

I sob louder.

"No. Y/n. Please tell me. Tell me what's going through your head"

I shook my head as i curled up on the side of the walk path on the Manhattan bridge.

Suddenly cameras were flashed in my face and I curled up even more trying to shield myself from the world.

I didn't even realize I hit the turn camera button so Chris could see where I was.

"y/n stay where you are got it"

I didn't even have time to react before he ended the call.
I heard people yelling my name and yelling questions.

I sat there for a while.
But i started crawling the safety net thing they had up at the bridge.

I had never been good at paparazzi. And I was already in my head.

I heard police cars pull up and turn off their sirens. I looked over my shoulders and saw them rushing out, but then I saw Chris and Mom pulling up.

Mom rushed out the car, her face pained, this wasn't fair on her was it? I mean. I did something wrong this would only do something wrong twice.

Suddenly my hands slipped and I tried to reach back for the net but instead I fell onto the ground right Infront of the police.

I heard mom's hasty steps. The people's gasps.

"Oh my god. Y/n. Y/n. Hey hey hey. Baby oh sweet baby"
Mom cupped my face, tears falling onto my face.

I make a muffled sound of pain
"shh shh it's okay baby I'm here. Mamma's here"

I heard her please but all I could focus on was the sky, the clouds forming the word 'never' or maybe it's my imagination.

I should've never tried killing myself, i should've never lied about my feelings, i should've never ditched school, i should've never thought I was a bad daughter.

I closed my eyes. Everything went black.

I could hear mom's muffled voice saying "NO NO. WAKE UP. GODDAMNIT"

i could feel and hear everything.
Until I laid still. With a faint beeping of a heart monitor.

but what does never actually mean? The definition is at no time. And it's the two words not and ever brought together.

                 Now or.
Never.   Never    .      Never  .
Again.                         Give up.
                                     

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An:

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