Into My Own League

Chapter 61(Peir ) Selfish reasons

Shyanne Shyanne she is all I think about when I am painting this piece it's not of a girl it's just colors .but to me it is like her colorful and warm.

It strange I hung up in a girl who I can't have and it kills because she is with my friend .

( ok time is up ) The teacher announces

I stop painting .

I play Nintendo for a little bit , but I grow tired of it .

There is a knock on the door .

I was not expecting anyone but I am sure it was someone I hooked up , and today is Friday so I can hook up .

When I answer the door it is my friend Hillston

" hey man , I didn't know you were coming over " I say

" yea my phone gave out of battery, " he tells me

I reply with
( cool )
I take a swig of my Gatorade.
" I think Shyanne is cheating " he blurts out
I spit the Gatorade out

" I know they are like the perfect couple , and he would never do that to her " he continues

" how do you know , I mean what would make you think that " I ask with a shaky voice

If he knows it will be the end of my new friendships

" I heard her talking on the phone to her friend she said she feels so guilty and she don't even know why she did it but she can't take it back but it would never happen again " he tells me

Ouch she don't know why she did it .

It kills me that I hurt my friend and even more so that I could lose this friendship.

Shyanne maybe was just a crush .
And if it will never happen again .
Then What's the point it will hurt him
I would be friendless and Shyanne would be alone
Can I just pretend it never happened

( Hillston it sounds like it is over maybe just leave it alone)
I tell him

If it was not for my own selfish reasons maybe my advice would be to tell , but I think this is for the best

I will get over Shyanne it can't be that hard I got over Mia . I just need another girl .

And not one of these cheap girls who will hook up no I need a real girl.

After Hillston left I took a nap ,
I just don't what kind of person I have become .

But I know I can't tell this secret ,it would hurt too many people including myself .

I decide to go for a walk .
The wind is blowing , it feels rough ,
I see a coffee house so I go into get out the wind and get a coffee .

I look at the menu and decide on my old go too order which I do at most coffee places .

After the lady in front of me I walk up .
I begin to say my order when I hear

" So your usual "

I look up and I know her immediately ..