Into My Own League

Chaptet 73 ( Mia ) ( Making my way back to you )

I need to leave , just get out of here , I don't want to leave early for Pier ,but I think I have to . I rush to the bathroom maybe I can hang out there for a while and sneak back in and see Pier like I been here all along .

I been sitting in the bathroom for a hour a few people I knew has walked in , I only made small chat ,
My mind keeps going back to Max he wants to get back with me how could that even work .
I live here he is before the thought even finish's in my mind ,
          ( Mia There you are "! I hear
It's Bethany

           " I been looking for you for like a hour " she adds
           " sorry I just had to get out of there " I admit
I stand and I push down my dress

I look in the mirror Bethany look at me she is giving me the strangest look

           " what Beth" I heastate to ask

     " Max told me " she tells me

      " please I can't talk about this " I whine

      " oh you are gonna talk about it ," she says

And gently pushes me in the big comfy
chair

She looks at her phone and texts

       " what are you doing " I ask

      " letting him know you are ok , he loves you at least I can let him know you are safe " she tells me

My heart aches at her words

        " now I know you love him so why won't you get back with him " she demands to know

          " Bethany it has been so long " I say

       " that is not a real reason tell me the truth I don't know what it is but I think it been going on since you broke up with him years ago" she says

And she is right , I never told   No one not Bethany or my mother ,
I kept it a secret mostly because I know it would hurt Max if he knew his father was behind our break up .

I know Mr.Rogan is In The wrong but he loves his son and Max loves his dad , so I will not be the person who ruins that

     " Mia " Bethany says
This secret has been killing you for so long

       " you have to promise you won't tell Max or anyone " I beg

     " ok " she agrees

And then the words come out of my mouth like water comes out of a faucet

   With every word her face expressions change .

          " so his father is the reason " she asks
  I nod

         " but Mia Max is a success so you can be with him now " she boasts

      " I can't I can't take the chance of messing him up " I complain

      " but he loves you he wants you so you would not mess him up " she yells

      "Please listen to me this is too much , this is how it has to be " I yell back at her

I run I just have to get away as I leave out I hear a
Voice I know it is Pier

" Where are you going " he asks

" Pier I was gonna come and talk to you but I just " I say and the tears start rolling down

" this is about Max " he asks

" how do you know " I ask

" with you Mia it always is " he says
" I mean I get it I do , y'all have been in love since the beginning and Mia whatever is going on I don't know but you should be together" he adds

I know he is right about it all , with me it is always about Max and we was in love basically since the beginning and we should be together , but can we it been so long and his father I mean what if he tried to break us up again

Tears start streaming again my sweet friend hugs me and I cry harder .
I then move back and say

" I don't want to get tears on your wedding suit " I say and actually I laugh just a little and so does Pier

After talking to Pier for a little bit I leave .
The walk was long but well needed I thought a lot I am so scared of so many things but mostly of not being with Max or maybe ruining his life .
As I get to my yard I am shocked to see Max sitting on my porch

" Max " I say

" hey " he says and jumps up

" if I am over stepping I am sorry but all I want to do is give you something "
He says and he reaches out his hand and. It is a big thick notebook

" What's is it " I ask

       " it the letter well it's the letter but more detailed and lot longer you know I  added five years worth of stuff " he tells me

   I just look at him .
Is he meaning the letter he wrote years ago that I never read the one that he said would change everything

         " The letter from years ago the one I threw away "
I ask

            " yea but a lot more additions " he says

I don't know what to say

I look at
The notebook it is the biggest notebook I ever seen
What could he had wrote

           " Just read it it is yours I am leaving 1 st thing in the morning " he says and then he leaves

As I walk into my parents house I am staying with them because I moved back last year and I have not decided what house or apartment I wanted but I am thinking as I walking into the living room should I read I didn't last time because I was so scared but now maybe just maybe I should .
I sit on the couch and open up the note book .