"I'm sorry Ana. I couldn't be any more sorry," iyak ni Phil. "It's breaking my heart seeing you cry like that. I know you love Dan but you chose me, you stood by me. And now this is what I do to you? I'm sorry." He cried. His tears were big. Pula na rin ang ilong at ang mukha nya. Kakaawaan mo sya.
He's willing to be the father of Say's kid? Kaya nya 'ko iiwan? How he loved her! Para magpaka-gago sya. Shet. T*ngina. I knew Phil was kind, but not this kind.
But strangely, I understood. There's no better time for Phil to be with Say than now. He loved her. It wasn't enough to be with her kaya he's staying with me pero ngayong kailangan na sya ni Say, he made himself available.
"But of course, you love Say more. I understand, it fvcking hurts Phil, but I understand. She needs you. At ikaw pa. Of course ikaw! Dapat nag-sex na lang kayo, dapat naging gago ka na lang para mas madali sa'kin. Pero you had to be kind, nice, caring! Gago ka!"
He moved towards me and hugged me. "Thanks for making me happy. For your love. Sa lahat-lahat ng pinagsamahan natin."
I cried. It was goodbye. "Fvck you Phil. Tatay ka na hindi naman sa'yo. You're stupid," sabi ko though I know he knows why I'm saying those things.
"And you're the greatest girl ever. Hands down. Dan's lucky you love him," he said back. I knew he was smiling.
"Ang dami mo pang sinasabi. I hate you," iyak na biro ko. I'd miss him. I'd miss my best friend.
"You don't mean that Bear," pout nya. "I know you don't hate me."
"Bakit ang bait bait mo?" tanong ko na mas ikinahagulgol ko.
Natawa sya pero umiyak din. "Be happy with Dan okay? If he makes you cry, I'll punch him in the face. Tell me. Okay?"
"Pinamimigay mo na 'ko!" pout ko.
"He told me pinahiram ka lang nya sa'kin so I never really had you."
"Phil thanks for being a great friend," sabi ko.
"No, thank you," sabi nya and kissed my forehead. He wiped my tears and helped us get up. Umupo kami sa couch.
"So this is the end huh? How's Say?" I asked.
"She didn't know she was pregnant. Kahapon nya lang nalaman. She freaked. She wasn't eating healthy and had been drinking this whole time. We will have her checked."
"Stupid this thing Phil. Are you sure you want to do this?" tanong ko. He knew I was talking about him taking the Dad responsibilities.
"Yes," he answered with no hesitations.
"How about Kearn and Liv?" tanong ko.
"Well they're happy now. We'll tell him for sure. He has to face this. Gago sya eh."
"You're such a good guy. I'm so proud of you."
"You're the greatest girl ever to be happy for me for such a thing as this."
We talked about their plans which was still non-existent dahil shock din kay Say ang gustong akuin ni Phil but initially they'd stay in Macau or Hongkong. Say didn't want to go back to her family in the Philippines with the scandal she's facing. That's where Phil would help her naman along with a ton of other stuff they have to deal with: medical checkups, telling Kearn, telling her family, telling his family, where they're staying, etc.
At one point I thanked God I wasn't Say, sa lahat ba naman ng poproblemahin nya, but I quickly realized she had Phil. Kung may ganyang lalaking dadamay sa'yo sa kahit ilan pang hirap, okay lang, maswerte si Say.
Phil tucked me in and kissed me good night. "I have to go back to Say. Tulog na siguro yun but I have to be sure. She's always anxious kasi eh hindi dapat because of the baby."
"I know. Go. She needs you," I said.
"Dan will be here in a couple more hours."
"You know?" tanong kong nagtataka.
"I called him about this. Pupuntahan ka daw nya agad," kwento ni Phil. "Malakas tama sa'yo eh. Gago sya ng gago sa'kin dahil sinaktan daw kita, binalewala daw kita pero nagpapasalamat na sinabi ko daw sa kanya agad at nag-hiwalay na daw tayo. Mayroon ding, 'gago kasi si Kearn' at 'idol kita' dahil willing pa rin daw akong balikan si Say. So I don't know how he feels about me."
"Tao po? Tao po? Liana?" narinig naming katok at tawag sa gate.
"O ayan na," sabi ni Phil. "Ang bilis."
Natawa ako.
Tumayo si Phil at lumabas ng kwarto para pag-buksan si Dan.
"Liana?!" dinig kong ulit ni Dan. Natawa ako sa timbre ng boses nyang 'di mo maintindihan kung concerned o excited. Napaupo ako sa kama.
"You're too loud," dinig kong sabi ni Phil.
"Oh akala ko ba you're with Say? Where's Liana? Gago ka iyak ng iyak, she called me."
"She did? Well I'm hard to let go of," biro ni Phil na alam kong para asarin lang si Dan.
"Gago ka. Buti nga 'di pa kita nasasapak for sleeping with her. Where is she? Where's Say pala?"
"Si Say nasa hotel. Trying to rest. Ana there inside trying to sleep. I guess with you here now, she won't?"
"We're moving her out, sasama na sya sa'kin," sabi ni Dan.
Ano daw? Lumabas ako ng kwarto to join them. "Excuse me?"
"Love, how are you? Pinaiyak ka ni Phil I know," yakap agad sa'kin ni Dan. Nagulat ako at napatingin kay Phil. It was awkward dahil several hours earlier kami pa ni Phil. Ngayon iba na ang yumayakap sa'kin, claiming me, calling me Love.
"Dan don't be excited," natatawang sabi ni Phil looking away.
"Gago si Phil I know," yakap pa sa'kin ni Dan. Mas mahigpit yun.
"She's still my ex Dan. Can you wait till I leave before you-"
Phil's reminder was too late as Dan already kissed me.
Nagulat ako. "Dan!" hampas ko sa kanya.
"Sorry. I'm really sorry about what happened," sabi ni Dan, but he wasn't.
"Are you, really?" tanong ni Phil sa kanya.
"Buntis si Say Phil and you say you want to be the father of her kid. Go to your family now," sabi ni Dan. "Bukas we're moving out of here."
"Dan do I have a say in all this? I have work on Monday," sabi ko. "Phil ito na yung kaaway ko oh."
"Uuwi ka na sa Pilipinas," sabi ni Dan.
"Aalis na 'ko," sabi ni Phil. "Don't argue with her Dan. Listen to her." Phil kissed me sa noo. "I love you Ana. I'll see you around."
"Dude you don't love her. Can you just leave?" sabi ni Dan kay Phil.
"Dan 'di ka pa boyfriend, don't be eager," sabi ni Phil. Bumaling sya sa'kin, "Pahirapan mo yan ah."
"Makakaasa ka," I said.
That was the last time Phil kissed me. It was bittersweet seeing him go. I was sad that we're over. He has become my best friend, my confidante, my rock but I'm also glad because of a lot of things: he has gone for who he truly wants, Say, finally having that confidence and shoving away his pride and that he has forgiven her. He's going to be a father, and how he has taken that responsibility of another. It wouldn't be easy but I know he would 'Phil' his way out of it. I know magiging masaya sila ni Say.
And then syempre because I have Dan back. Phil made the difficult decision for me. He made us easy. He made Liana and Dan happen again.
"You wouldn't make it difficult for me will you?" tanong ni Dan sa'kin. Iniwan ko sya sa living area at pumasok na ng kwarto para matulog. Sinundan nya ako.
"Oh I will. Nung pumunta kami sa unit mo, you were rude."
"Eeeehhh," sabi nyang parang bata. "Pero tabi tayo tonight?" asa nya.
"No! Dun ka sa kabila," pagtataray ko. Something's telling me it's going to be a long night.
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That Unfaithful Night (Completed)
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