Broken Boy meets Broken Girl

Chapter 9

Chapter 9- Things I'll never say

I woke up earlier than my usual. I forgot to prepare my bags last night. I think it's because of over thinking and stress eating, but one thing is for sure, it's all because of my stupid partner, Apollo Caiden Atkins.

Where does he get his stupid guts? I mean, he's, he's an asssole! Am I making any sense here?

I snapped out of reality when I remembered my bags.

I bought shorts, jeans, cropped tops. I didn't bother to get some dresses, because I'm actually not interested in wearing those, and for the fact that we're going to a forest, adventure park, falls and light house do you think I  have all the guts to wear dresses?

My current outfit for today is, simple black ripped jeans, black cropped top, black snickers and gray hoodie jacket pero nakabukas ang zipper sa harapan ng jacket ko. I didn't curl my hair, I'm not used to it actually.

If you were wondering where I am today, I'm here at our mansion. I slept in my condo pero maaga nalang ako pumunta dito para hindi ko makita si Eliza, mukha pa nga lang n'ya naiirita na ako, what more kung makausap ko?

I prepared everything as fast as I can. I'm so excited sa road trips at syempre pag paint. Speaking of painting, hindi ko pa pala naihahanda ang mga paints at brushes ko.

I texted Apollo na car naman n'ya ang gamitin namin, aba pagod na ang sasakyan ko 'no!

To: Apollo

Hoy! Sasakyan mo naman ah? Ok. See you.

I was surprised that he replied immediately,

From: Apollo

Ok. See you, Artist.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa nireply n'ya, the fuck?! Anong klaseng tawagan 'yan? I'll just tell him na ibahin namin, pangit eh.

I may sound like, I like him. Yes, I do like him but I'm still assuring my feelings for him. I just do hope that if I found out that I really like him, he would feel the same way.

I closed the zipper of my baggage and started packing my gadgets. Phones, earphones, chargers, cameras.

"I see, you have a visitor." I overheard someone behind me

I know her voice, that's why I don't need to ask myself who that person is.

I already knew, it was the bitch. My beloved sister.

"He's not my visitor. He's my partner."

"Are you dating Him?" narinig ko ang tono ng boses n'ya sa 'Him' it somehow sounded like, special? Maybe I just didn't  heard it right? I don't know, and I don't care.

"Eh, ano naman sa'yo?" She froze.

"Just answer my damn question!" She yelled at me, fuck! S'ya pa talaga ang may lakas ng loob sigawan ako, eh nananahimik lang naman ako!

"You don't have the right to ask private questions, we're not even close." I rolled my eyes, My God! I'm fucking late!

"Why don't you just answer the question? Why huh? Because you like him? Because you two are couples? Come on, tell me!" nagulat ako sa pag sigaw n'ya, I didn't see that coming.

"First of all I don't want to answer your damn question. Second, why are you so interested? And yes I do like him" I made the last word sounded special, "Third, we're not a couple, but I can feel that we'll probably get there, wait and you'll see." I left the room and wore my victory smile. Huh, Burn that Bitch!

Lumabas na ako ng bahay dala dala ang baggages ko, sumulyap ako sa gate only to find out Apollo na nakatayo at nakasandal sa pintuan ng kotse n'ya. I can't deny that he's really handsome, he's wearing a black pants and black shirt with gray shoes. Nagulat ako at aba, terno pa kami. Mukha tuloy kaming couple.

"May sayaw ba tayo? Nakiki terno ka, ah." Pambungad ko sa kan'ya

"Hindi. This is what you call, Destined" he winked

I can feel my checks blushing, shit! He really has that effect on me, "Ha-ha-ha" I bursted out a fake laugh "kung mag jojoke ka, 'wage 'yung corny, Shiz! Apollo!" I said sabay pasok sa kotse n'ya.

Pinapasok ko na ang baggages sa likod ng car n'ya when he hugged me from my back.

Wait, what? Hugged? Hugged?! Shit! He hugged me!

"What the hell Ap--" he placed his index finger on my lips signaling me to remain silent.

"Let's stay like this for a minute, please." I did what he wants, actually to tell you honestly, kinikilig na ako ngayon, hindi ko lang pinapahalata sa kan'ya at baka mag mayabang pa.

"When are you planning to move, Apollo? Next year? We have some works to do!"

Dahan dahan n'yang tinanggal ang mga braso n'yang may muscles sa pagkayakap sa akin. Sumulyap ako sa kaniya para makita ang reaction niya, he looked, dissapointed? Baka naman namamalik mata lang ako.

Akmang ilalagay ko na ang magbigat na baggage ko ng hinawakan niya ang mga braso ko, "Ako na." He said and gave his sweetest smile, 'yung smile na makakapag himatay sa mga babae,  'yung smile na mapapalaway ang mga babae sa kaniya, 'yung smile na magbibigay sa'yo ng dahilan para magustuhan mo s'ya.

"Just, get in the car." Sinunod ko naman s'ya at sumakay na nga, I turned on his radio para may sounds kami habang bumabyahe, I saw his CDs puro Avril Lavigne, nang naka pasok na s'ya sa sasakyan I started asking him my question

"Favorite singer mo si Avril?" He nodded, parehas pala kami. Medyo natawa naman ako kasi ka lalaking tao, Avril Lavigne ang singer.

I inserted the cd at ipinlay na 'yon,

'I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I Know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
Your worth it
Yeah'

He continued on driving habang parehas kaming tahimik na nakikinig sa kanta, he's eyes are on the road but I can see the emotions in his eyes. Madali lang basahin ang nasa isip n'ya, o hulaan. Pero, kitang kita mong umiiwas s'ya para hindi mo makita ang emotion na gusto at ayaw n'yang ilabas.

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

Hindi ko alam kung nang aasar ba 'yung cd o ano, why? Because that's exactly what I want to tell him, or I want him to do to me but the heck?! Those thing will always be the things I'll never tell him.

I didn't expect that a guy like him would love Avril. I mean, a lot of people already forgot about her. Wait. Why am I talking about Avril? Ok, back to reality I'm over thinking again.

"I think that song's fit us." He smirked and continued driving.

What the hell is he talking about? Papano naging sakto sa Amin ang kanta na 'yon? Was he thinking the same thought that I was thinking a minute ago?

One thing is for sure I know, no matter what happens I'll never tell him those things. Siguro pag nagkabukuhan na, pero hangga't kaya kong ideny, I'll deny it. Ayokong masaktan uli, ayokong maging assuming kasi alam kong ako alang ang masasaktan.

Siguro iintayin ko s'yang unang umamin sa akin, if ever my feelings nga s'ya para sa akin.

'Guess I'm wishing my life away, with these things I'll never say.'