A serious and new rough patch for me when I wrote this, although it wasn't just me at the time, one of my oldest friends told me something that I just couldn't get my head around which I guess came out here.
I feel guilty,
When someone says something,
I take it the wrong way in my head,
Someone says "you look like you're starving",
I automatically they are talking to me,
When someone stares into space or something towards me,
I panic and think they see,
Think they know,
Think they're too afraid to ask me,
I know no one knows,
But I go into panic override,
I feel like I want to disappear,
Shrink down in size,
And be invisible,
But I know soon someone will see,
Someone will know,
Someone will realize,
And will confront me...
I dread that day,
But by then I might have disappeared.
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PoetrySo, welcome to my life and my thoughts. Everything in here comes from the heart and is something from my life whether that's loss, love, heartbreak, anger, jealousy, friendships, hard times, family and more it's all in here at some point. My life ma...
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