The Casanova's Greatest Love

Kabanata XLIX

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"Sorry. I can't remember...anything," Nilibot ko ng tingin ang kwarto ko ngunit ni isa sa kanila ay wala akonh mamukhaan. Pinipilit kong alalahanin ang nangyari, pero blanko ang isip ko! Walang pumapasok doon!

The doctor smiled at me, but I saw sadness in her eyes. While the woman beside me, hold my hand. "Anak..." her voice broke.

My... mom?

"You are Christine Faye Park and you're pregnant. Until the accident happened..."

I lost my baby. I couldn't find a word to describe the pain I felt that night. My flesh and blood is... now gone!

When a child lost their parents, you can now call them orphan. When you lost your spouse, you are called a widower. But what will you call a mother who just... lost her child? None. Because a mother's love is unconditionally and when their child was gone the pain is unbearable...

"I'm Carmina. I'm your mother. Here's your dad, Francis," the man beside her smiled at me but I sensed a tears in the corner of his eyes.

She bit her lip. Mukhang hindi pa yata alam ang sasabihing kasunod lalo na nung nakita niya akong umiiyak na. Hindi ko kilala ang sarili ko! Hindi ko sila kilala! Hindi ko alam kung nagsasabi sila ng totoo! And... my child is gone.

"You met an accident here in Korea. You are at the park with Kyle. Unfortunately, you lost... one of your triplets. My grandchild," aniya sa basag na boses.

I was stunned. Sumasakit ang ulo ko sa nangyayari. The doctor explained to me that I was really carrying a triplets, the two, luckily survived but one of my little angel...didn't.

Mahina ang kapit ng isa kong anak. I was hit on my butt and my spine didn't got any damage, even when I used that to protect them.

I know that our little angel saved us. He sacrificed himself for us... to keep us alive.

When I heard the news about my twins, I felt like I was given an inspiration to go on but the pain that I felt when I lost one, is still there. Kaya pala magkasabay ng kasiyahan sa kalungkutan?

Right there, I promised to take care of my children. I named them Troy Christopher and Trixie Catharina. Maaga man na binawi sa amin ang isa, may pakiramdam akong lalaki siya. I named him Christian Trevor.

Akala nila, it was nothing for me dahil wala naman talaga akong maalala noon. Noong gumising ako, ni hindi ko nga alam na buntis ako paano pa kaya yung nawalan ako ng anak?

Naunang inilabas si Chris, my bouncing baby boy, kaya siya ang pangalwa ko. Hindi ako nakakalimot dumalaw sa anak ko sa kaniyang puntod. Humihingi ng patawad dahil hindi ko siya naprotektahan. Nagpapasalamat dahil lagi niya kaming binabantayan ng mga kapatid niya, ramdam ko iyon...

I'm Christine Faye Park. I turned eighteen last year. My parents are Carmina and Francis Park. I have one sister who was kidnapped when we're a kid. My sister is married to Zeijano Tao Huang and they are expecting one child, Lei Ashton. I have many friends such as Exo and Red Warriors including their girlfriends but my best peers are my cousin Xiumin, Luhan, Tao, Rayah and Ayesha. I can't remember the picture of Luhan, Tao and Ayesha because I did not see them personally but because they are showing me pictures, I memorized how they look. I'm bound to marry Kyle Choi, my long-time boyfriend and also the father of my children...

That was what I believed these past seven years. That's what they made me believe. I thought I will never regain my memory until I die but it all came back to me since last month. And I know that I totally remembered it all.

Gabi-gabi. Minsan pa nga ay umaga, minsan ay mananakit bigla ang ulo ko para lamang lumabas ang mga pangyayaring iyon. Remembering it all was like a torture... I can't imagine what I've been through at a young age.