Life As A Teasdale

Ch.31

I walked in after I thought Harry was going to let a car hit him. I walked in and went to bed.










I woke up and my stomach made sounds. I haven't eaten in days. I stumbled out if bed and down to the kitchen. My partners left me a note telling me they will be back in a few hours. I opened cabinets and saw nothing to eat. I am in no state to drive but I didn't care. I walked up to my room and changed out of my closes I have been in for days. I brushed my teeth. I didn't have the strength to brush my hair so I put it in a bun. I walked down the stairs and grabbed my keys. I climbed into my car and drove the the grocers. I walked into the store and grabbed things. I was getting tea and a girl said my name behind me.




I turned around. Shit I forgot I have bags under my eyes.




"Yes?" I asked.










"Hi sorry I just recognized you I'm a fan of the boys and I saw you and Harry had a thing"




She just had to bring that up.










"Sorry I didn't mean to did you break up with him or did he break up with you?"




"That's non of your business" I chocked out.










"I'm sorry I know but you really shouldn't listen to people you two were- are perfect"




"I have to go sorry"




With that I walked away and paid. I drove home but didn't go home. I didn't know where I was going but my mind did. I drove to Harry's place. I stopped my car and backed out. I stopped. I started to cry. That girl is right I shouldn't care and if I can't live without Harry and he can't do the same then we should just be together. I climbed out of my car and slowly walked to the door. I was about to knock on the door but it opened. It wasn't Harry. It was Lou. She shut the door behind her and walked to me.




"What are you doing here?" She asked.




"I-I-I"




"You should talk to him he's a mess at the moment"




"What are you doing here?" I asked.










"He called me and I was just leaving" She explained.




I nodded.




"Good luck" She said.




She walked away and I knocked on the door. It took a few seconds till the door finally opened. He looked up and his eyes were red and huge. He looked just like me.




He opened his mouth but didn't say anything. I looked at him in the eyes. I looked at his face. My eyes looked at him all over. He started to cry and look away. I jumped to him and gave him a hug. He immediately hugged me back. I smelled him. That's weird I know. I kissed the side of his face. I cried in his arms.




We walked in still hugging. I shut the door and looked at him.




"I don't care what people say I realized I can't be without you they can hate and it will get to me but I don't care I miss... Missed you I can't leave again and don't let me"




"El I've missed you so much and don't worry I won't please next time just tell me we can get through it together and it will get better I promise"




"But Harry there is one more thing"




"What?" He asked looking into my eyes.




This will be harder than I thought it would be.




"I well I love you so much and I've missed you more than anything but I don't want to be in a relationship... See I though it would be fine but I just want to be friends right now with you and see where it goes" I say wishing I haven't.




He gulps and looked at me. He grabs my hands and looks into my eyes. I am waiting for him to say but I love you and things but that doesn't happen.




"Okay"







Okay? I though you would fight for me but I guess it's a good thing you didn't.




"Thank you for understanding honestly Harry I will always love you I mean you are the first guy to ever truly love me for me and not do terrible things"




He smiled at me and rubbed my hand.




"It's okay I understand at least I get you in my life best friend" He said softy hitting my arm.




I laughed from how cute that was and how he remembered we are best friends. I even forgot so I'm glad he remembered. We sat there in silence.




"I better be going I have stuff in my car" I said standing up and Harry doing the same.




"Um okay I was wondering if your coming to Australia with us?"




Shit I never thought of going.




"Um I wasn't invited so no"




"But c'mon you have to go it will be fun we can go to the beach go party we can drink there" He said and it was so funny.




I laughed at what he said.




"Are you sure it's okay for me to go?" I asked.




"Yes I am sure I will be in LA before I go but you can go with the boys and Lou"




"Gosh thanks" I joke.




"What you can't go somewhere without me?" He asked laughing.




The way he is joking reminds me of before we dated. Those days where so amazing and while we were dating was amazing. I the fact Harry and I can talk and still hang around each other and be normal about it.