Life As A Teasdale

Ch.155

I'm driving to Stella's and it snowed a little last night. Snow is sometimes my favorite. This wasn't a lot though.

When I walked into her flat I wasn't going to bring up anything with Harry. What happened is going to stay between the both of us. It was the best goodbye but now that I know we are over and it's so clear it hurts me even more.

"It's Ellie" Sam yelled as I walked in.

"What are you doing here?"

"I spent the night"

"Oh yeah you guys went to that party"

"You should have came"

"No I stayed home" I lied. I spent my night with Harry. We didn't do anything like the night before. We just had a night like friends would have.

"Sit down" He pulled me next to him and I laughed.

"Ellie I have to go pick up my sister I'll be right back"

"Okay? Is she alright?"

"Yeah she just drank last night and is scared my mum is going to kill her" She laughed and walked out the door.

"Isn't she like 15?"

"Yep" Sam chuckled and I laid my head on his shoulder.

"How was the party?"

"Good, Phoebe was there"

"Oh I never called her back"

"Are you putting it off?"

"No I just really haven't had time"

"Want to call her now?"

"No I'm with you"

"Aw good you don't care about time when your with me"

"What?" I asked confused.

"I don't even know either" He smiled and I laid my head in his lap.

"God I'm so tired"

"Did you stay up late?"

"Yeah you can say that"

He messed with my hair and I though of Harry. I need to stop doing that.

I laid on Sam's lap and watched television with him. He rested his hand on my hip and I turned on my back. I looked up at him and he smiled. I have the strangest friendship with Sam. If it's even a friendship.

I sat up and he pulled me close. Whatever came over me it didn't feel bad.

He smashed his lips to mine and I wrapped my legs around him. He was rough, I liked it. His hand went up my shirt and he sucked on my neck.

He laid me down on the couch and I continued to kiss him. Usually I feel regret but not now. The door flew open and he crawled off of me. I watched Stella's sister walk in and Stella behind her.

I whipped on my mouth and Sam stood up.

"How was your night Maggie?" He asked and she glared at him.

"Whatever Sam"

"Don't worry Maggie Sam has done worse at that age" I stepped in and he glared at me.

"We all have" Stella laughed.

"I got a call when you were gone that I have to pick something up" I lied so Stella.

"Oh okay? Well come by soon"

"I will"

"Sam I need your help remember"

"Oh yeah sorry" He played along and we said goodbye.

He got in my car and I looked at him.

"You are such a little dick" I looked at him and he laughed as I drove away.

"How?"

"Because I just lied to her so I can make out with you"

He laughed and I asked him where to go. We headed to his place. I'm not about this life where you do shit with different guys like every other day.

"Sam I want to make this clear nothing is really going to happen"

"Don't worry I know"

It was 5 o'clock and I was laying on Sam's couch. As I kept thinking about what we did I regretted it. I hate when I do that. I feel like I can't do anything without thinking I'm cheating on Harry. Probably because we were together for so long when we shouldn't have been.

I left his place and got a call from Harry.

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing at the moment, what's up?"

"Would you want to come to come down and spend New Years with me?"

"Um aren't you staying at your mums?"

"Yes, but she won't care if you come. We never have spent a New Years together and I think it would be fun to party together" He chuckled and I smiled. I'm trying to make it sound like I'm not as happy as I am.

I know we aren't together but we still have that bond that we are. If he would have called me last year and stayed here then maybe, possibly we could still be together.

"Okay yeah, I'll come"

"Perfect. I'll let her know"

"What are you doing?"

"I'm laying in bed" He yawned and I laughed.

"Well I just got home and we have some people over but I'll call you later"

"Okay love you"

"Love you too" I smiled and walked inside my house.

People I have never seen before are here along with my dads brothers family.

"Who are these people?" I ask my cousin and she looks at me.

"People who live next door, they just moved in"

"Oh"

I got introduced to them and they seem very nice. All I can think about is going to see Harry. I've missed him so much.