Life As A Teasdale

Ch.159

I went to grab coffee for me and Phoebe. I went by myself while she stayed at Bridget and Molly's. When I walked into the coffee shop it was empty.

I ordered the drinks and waited for them to make them. They handed me my ice coffee and I waited for Phoebes.

The door opened right as I picked up the second drink. I looked at who was walking in and almost dropped the drinks.

I put my sunglasses on and tried to walk right past him. Harry being Harry grabbed my arm.

"Ellie?" He sounded relieved and excited.

I didn't say anything and got out of his grip and went straight to my car.

"Hey wait" He yelled and I opened the car door.

I set the drinks down and screamed. Why do I always run into him and at a time I didn't need to see him. But seeing him made me so much better.

I opened the door and yelled Phoebes name.

"Up here"

"Guess who I saw" I screamed and handed her the drink.

"Who?"

"Harry. The place was like empty and you know how happened to walk in. Harry and he stopped me and I ran past him"

"Holy shit"

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I sat on the plane to head home and it's what I need. America isn't the place to be right now for me. Too much shit happening and it's way too much than before.

No one was by me which I was thankful for. I looked out the window and a black sky. The only light was coming from people on the ground and lights around the airport.

I read the text between Harry and I and I held back tears. We use to be so friendly but now it's a not so good relationship. I don't know if it's a friendship, we don't hate each other. I treat him like I do even though I love him with all my heart. Maybe that's why I put on a show. To look like I do hate him to show people I've moved on. He's done nothing for me to hate him. He has in the past but I've gotten over it.

When the plane took off and I laid my head back and put my headphones in. I closed my eyes and imagined a good life. No one has a good life but they should enjoy it.

I woke up and had a few more hours till we landed in London. When I get to the airport I'm heading to my car and driving home. I'll then talk to Phoebe about everything, or at least try. There was a baby crying and I didn't know why a parent would take a baby from LA to London.

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I walked to my car and it felt nice to be back in London. It was almost 2 in the morning and the air was crisp.

My drove back home was quick and I had my music on quiet. I tried to keep awake. I had too.

I walked into my house quietly and Rufus didn't make a sound and in fact he wasn't even laying out. He must be with my parents. I walked up to my room and saw everything looked the same. I looked at the pictures on the wall and picked up my phone.

As much as it kills me this isn't fair for Harry.

"Hello? Harry?"

"Ellie, hi!" His voice sounded tired.

"How are you doing?" I asked and ran my finger over his face through glass.

"I'm doing alright, tired and worn out. How about you?"

"Um I'm fine just tired myself"

"Yeah how's you're night going? I saw Molly walking and was surprised you weren't with her"

"I'm not there"

"What do you mean?"

"I just got back to London"

"Oh wow" His voice got more disappointed.

"What"

"I just thought you would be here on Sunday"

"Harry I'm sorry. I'm sorry for treating you the way I've been and it's probably hard on you but it's way harder on me. I thought being with Logan would solve things immediately and make you mad. I don't know why I would want to make you mad. I also don't know why I would want to solve things so quickly. I just can't be with anyone right now. You might be with someone and congratulations. I really do hope you're happy. I just don't want to fight with you anymore"

"Ellie there is so many things we should talk about in person. I guess I can try and still wait till we see each other in Australia but when I saw you the other day... Why did you just run like that?"

"Because I didn't know what to say and if we're going to see each other again and talk in person I want it to just be the two of us"

"I'm just glad you aren't shutting me out"

"It was making things harder"

"So you are done with Logan?"

"I feel bad because I've been leading guys on and then throwing them to the side"

"I would think that's very bitchy but it's coming from you and I know you don't actually mean it" He chuckled and I laid in bed.

"I'm very tried and I will talk to you soon, okay?"

"You better call me very soon"

"Baby steps?"

"Yes"

"You're the best" I smiled wishing he was next to me.

"I love you Ellie"

"I love you" I closed my eyes.

"Goodnight"

"Goodnight"

I hung up and plugged my phone in. Harry and I aren't 100% back but we are working on trying to get back to normal, comfortable speaking terms.

(I have been so busy BUT HARRY'S BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW WELL LIKE A FEW HOURS AND IM SO SAD)