Life As A Teasdale

Ch.168

When I woke up I looked around and remembered I had way too much to drink last night. My head was pounding and I wanted to throw up. I looked to the side of me and saw Sam and Stella passed out. I laid back down and picked up my phone. I had missed Harry's calls and also saw that I had called him many times.

Sam's birthday was last night and Stella planned on getting hotel rooms for everyone.

Sam began to wake up and he grabbed my arm. I looked down at him as he rubbed his eyes.

"Morning" He groaned.

"Feeling like rubbish?"

"Most defiantly" He nodded and I put my phone away.

"At least you had fun last night" I smiled at him.

"Last night was a blast and you were so drunk which made it beyond funny" He was chuckling and I covered his mouth he was so loud.

"I don't remember anything" I looked at him and he looked nervous.

"Want me to tell you everything?"

"Yes"

"Okay well we were having a great time then you had way too many drinks. So I followed you outside and you were calling someone. You had tears in your eyes and I kept asking who it was then you yelled at me to leave. So I went back inside and watched you call and call so finally I took your phone and you were trying to call Harry"

I licked my lips and looked away from him. He grabbed my hand and I turned back to him.

"Did anyone see me?"

"No, I took you here and then Stella came a few hours later"

"Fuck" My lip was beginning to tremble.

"El?"

"Sam I'm sorry"

"Why are you apologizing"

"Because I just ruin everyone's time and it pisses me off"

"You didn't ruin anyone's time. I didn't have to take you here or see if you were okay I did it because I care about you"

We sat outside and I still had a blanket rapped around me. My head was laying on his chest and Sam kept talking.

"Maybe you should fly out to New York again. You had a great time last time you were going through something like this"

"Yeah but I had a thing with Phoebes roommate"

"Oh" He chuckled and I looked at him.

"Sometimes I want to go back in time and redo many things. Some things that I should have known from the beginning was a bad idea. Also I wouldn't have led guys on or had something with them because they blame their sadness on me"

"You can't take the blame for how other people feel"

"Yes, if I'm the one who caused it"

"They caused it themselves for make you deal with everything"

"I do love Harry but I also love someone else"

"Who's that?"

I looked at him and shook my head. This is when I should shut my mouth so I don't cause someone else to hurt.

"I'm sorry but I love you half the time. You've always been here for me and you give me things I could never ask for. Sam you're like the perfect guy and I should have seen that a long time ago"

"Ellie I'm not mad at you for loving me"

"Then what do I do?"

"Let's give this time. I want you to take some time and get yourself together. Go home, see your parents spend time with Lux then go to New York for a week or two"

"You're right"

I got ready and left Stella's place and headed home. I haven't been there for a while it seems.

I walked through the front door and to my surprise a few people were over. My mum looked so happy to see me and ran over to me. I hugged her and she kissed my head. Then my dad came over and hugged me for a while. They told me that they are glad I made it home.

Lux was here and I picked her up.

"My goodness the princess's has cut her hair" I smiled and she giggled.

"Mommy did it"

"I know and I absolutely love it" I cheered and put her down.

I hugged Tom and found Lou sitting outside. She hugged me and I sat down next to her.

"How have you been girl?"

"Perfect"

"I talked to Harry today"

"What did he say?"

"Told me how he's been and about you in LA"

"Yeah life is pretty crazy"

"I'll be honest you actually look quiet good"

"Thank you, being home makes me feel pretty good"

Later that night I was laying in bed and Harry called me. I quickly answered and he was quiet and slow.

"Thank god you answered"

"Sorry I've had a busy day"

"Well I saw that you called me a lot last night"

"Yeah I was drunk and I guess kept butt dialing"

"Oh" He chuckled.

"What did you do today?"

"Tom, Lou, and Lux were here so I played with her and talked to Tom and Lou"

"I'm guessing she told you I called her"

"Yep she did"

"How have you been"

"I've been okay. Keep thinking about you"

"Same here"

"How's LA?"

"Really good"

"When are you coming home? Or are you going to fly from there to wherever the tour starts?"

"I'm going to fly home I think"

"That will be nice, I bet your family would like to see you"

"I know, do you want to see me too?"

"Oh course I do"

"I saw you and Sam were close last night"

"Harry don't"

"I'm not I'm just saying"

"Im not doing anything with him, I'm still madly in love with you"

"Then why did we have to end things again?"

"You know why"

"I know but it doesn't seem real"

"I love you Harry"

"I love you too Ellie"

I talked for a few more minutes and then hung up. I was very tired and needed sleep.

I called Rufus to come get on my bed and he curled up next to me. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.