Life As A Teasdale

Ch.156

When I got to Harry's mum's house I felt nervous. I've been here before but I'm scared. I know I shouldn't be but I am.

I left my bag in the car and walked up to the front door. I knocked on it and Anne opener up smiling.

"Hi Ellie" She hugged me and I came inside.

"Hi, how are you"

"I'm great how about you? You're hair is growing out"

I laughed. "I'm doing pretty good"

"Harry should be home soon"

I sat down and talked with her and Robin. I wasn't nervous right as she opened the door. They are the nicest people.

The door opened and Harry walked in with a girl. I didn't know what to think or what to do so I looked down at my phone. Why did I even come here? So he can show me that he's moved on and really be a friend. I'm fine with being friends but I feel so stupid.

"Oh Ellie you made it" He smiled and walked over to me and hugged me.

"This is Alice, I grew up with her"

I shook her hand. "Hi, I'm Ellie"

"Alice" She smiled and felt stupid for thinking what I did.

I really shouldn't jump to conclusions.

"She's getting her car" He said and she left.

Harry got my bag from my car and brought it into his room. I laid in bed next to him and he pulled me close. I know this is wrong and I shouldn't. Harry is like a drug and I need to stop.

"I'm glad you came"

"Yeah" I whispered and he grabbed my hand.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, I'm fine I promise"

"Tomorrow do you want to go out or stay in?"

"I'm fine with anything" I turned to look at him and we were close.

Looking into his eyes made me miss him even more.

"Ellie I-" He cut himself and pushed his lips to mine.

I grabbed his arms and squeezed them. I didn't care but I knew I would later.

"Harry this is wrong"

"Do you really think we can wait a year till we touch each other again"

"We can touch each other but we can't do this"

"I know you can't do it and I can't either"

"A year is so fucking long I know that, but we can't do this"

"I'm just going to go to sleep" He turned over and I laid down.

"Harry" I signed and he didn't answer"

He never answers so I just fell asleep. I know I will cry at night knowing I have to give this a year. It is too hard for us but we really do need to do this.

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It was almost midnight and I'm sitting next to Harry. We are with Anne and Robin.

"Ellie come here real quick" Harry stood up and I grabbed his hand.

We walked outside in the back and I looked at him.

"Harry it's cold out here"

"I know I want to talk real quick"

"Can't we do that somewhere inside?"

"Ellie listen"

"Okay"