Life As A Teasdale

Ch.124

My parents want me to fly out to be with them in New York but I rather stay here. I mean maybe I should get out of the house and actually do something different then drink. I told them to give me a day or so to think about it.

I walked into my room and called Phoebe to ask her if she would sleep over at my house. Sadly she has a birthday dinner for her grandma. I could call Stella or someone else but I really don't want too. I thought about calling Evan but it would be strange. But I thought about it and called Sam. I know this is a bad idea but I trust him sorta.

I opened the door and he was smiling.

"I heard you wanted me to spend the night?"

"I honestly would think about doing this but I really don't want to sleep at my house alone"

"It's okay to be scared"

"Yeah well don't think you're sleeping in the same bed as me, you will be sleeping on the couch or in the guest room"

"I'll take the couch"

"Really?"

"Yeah I sorta get the vibe you don't want me to close"

I laughed and he fixed his hair.

"You're a good... Friend" I pulled him into a hug and he wrapped his arms around me.

"You have no idea how long I've been waiting to hear those words from you again"

I gave him blankets and left downstairs. I walked to my room and locked the door with Rufus with me. Phoebe FaceTimed me I answered.

"Sorry I can't be with you tonight"

"No it's okay. I found someone to be downstairs"

"What? Like who?"

"When I tell you don't say anything I locked my door and he knows not to do anything wrong"

"Don't you dare say-"

"Sam"

"Ellie what are you thinking"

"Okay I'm seeing if I can give him another chance"

"He cries to you at a bar and you take him back"

"Phoebe that's not what happened"

"Sounds like it"

"If your grandma didn't have a birthday on the day I feel scared to sleep alone in this house we wouldn't be having this conversation" She started to laugh and I did too.

"I'll tell my grandma that next time I see her"

"My parents want me to fly hot to New York to be with them"

"What really?"

"Yeah. They don't want me drinking all the time and if I'm scared to sleep alone they want to see if in okay. They say I haven't been myself lately"

She was quiet for a little while before speaking.

"I agree with them. You haven't been the same happy Ellie I know"

"Because love when I say in happy I'm actually not happy most of the time"

"That's not true. Something happened and it took away a little part of you"

"Nothing of me was taken away"

"I'm sorry I'm not trying to make a fuss or anything"

I thought about what she said and why my parents said. I haven't been my happy self lately. I'm trying to think of what happened but I can't quiet wrap my mind around it. Could it be when Stephen told me he had cancer or after when I found Evan is dating someone? If it is Evan I should forget about it because I don't love him.