Life As A Teasdale

Ch.64

"Who was that?" I asked and she looked at me.

"Your father"

"Oh what's he doing?"

"Eating in his hotel room"

"Oh"

"Ellie we need to talk"

"About what?"

"Sit down please"

I sat down and she looked at me.

"I know you aren't okay"

"Yes I am mom I don't want to have this conversation with you"

"Well why not if you talk about it it will get better"

"That's what someone told me before now look at me? But I'm fine if you don't mind I've had a long day I'm going to go to bed and then tomorrow I need to get a new phone"

"Why do you need to get a new phone?" She asked and I held up my phone.

She gasped. "Ellie Rose"

"Mom."

"I will go with you"

"Okay night love you"

"Love you too Ellie"

I walked up stairs and got ready for bed. I turned on my phone and had a lot more calls from Harry. Should I answer it? He is calling me. I can't avoid him forever. But right how I wish I could. Maybe I can answer and just tell him I'm done and that I'm fine. I answered and my heart started to beat really fast.

"Ellie listen I know it looks really bad but I pro-"

"Harry you know what you have promised a lot of things and they don't always end well now do they. I understand that's friends can hug each other like that but a lot more things have happened then just that and I'm fucking sick of it having someone lie to every god damn second. Go fuck her go love her care about her more than you care about me. You promised you fucking promised. I just I can't anymore. Harry you are different you were different from every guy I've been with I though I could trust you. Not get my heart broken by you. Not get cheated on. You don't seem like the boy to cheat on a girl but you did. I am so mad at you. But I'm choosing to me happy and move on."

"Ellie don't please I know I messed up please forgive me"

"Harry you fucking cheated on me how do you think I can forgive you I am so fucking done we are over never again you said you wouldn't do this again but you did"

"I know I did I'm so sorry let me explain-"

"No you don't get it I am so upset. I am fucking heartbroken I want to kill myself right now so I don't have to feel the pain right now"

"No please don't do that don't say we are over listen to me please just stop don't" He said and started to cry. My heart broke for him but he caused this himself.

"Don't cry you did this to yourself"

"But I love you more than anything I cant live without you Ellie I know sorry doesn't make a difference but please don't"

"If you loved me more than anything you wouldn't have done this"

He started to cry a little louder and I felt so bad. He did this so he should be crying. I know I say maybe someday we might be able to try again but how do I know he wont do this again? I am so pissed off I can't.

"I have to go Harry but I love you I always will I wish it didn't have to end like this but maybe it just isn't suppose to be if you want your stuff all of it will be with Lou I will give it to her so I don't have to see you. Maybe that will be the best thing. I hope you have a good birthday when it is your birthday" I say with my voice cracking at the end.

Everything is happening so fast. My lips start to shake and I cover my mouth with my other hand.

"I'm so sorry baby"

"You better be"

"If you find another guy I hope they don't have to do stuff all the time or do stupid things and they love you but I hope you know they will never love you as much as I do"

"Goodbye Harry"

"Don't" He says as I end the call. I scream and throw things off the shelves in my closet. I just broke up with my boyfriend. Why?

I love him so much I want to be with him. But he clearly has feelings for Kendall and rather have her. I whipped my eyes and thought I shouldn't cry since I said I would be strong about this. I called my friend and it rang a few times and then she finally answered.

"Ellie what's up?"

"Do you want to go out tonight?"

"Sure is everything okay?"

"Yeah I just want to get my mind off of something"

"Okay want to drive to my place?"

"Yeah see you in a bit" I said and got ready.

I fixed my makeup and drove to her house. When I arrived she let me in. She knows about Harry and I so I told her what happened. We talked a little bit before we left to a pub. We arrived and got drinks. I was getting drunk and also a little bored. I decided to ask Evan if he wanted to hang out. I sent him a text and he said he would find the place. I had more to drink and laughed with my friend Sophie. We ended up getting a few more of our friends to come out. I have texted Phoebe already about what happened. When she arrived I gave her a long hug. I wasn't that drunk I could still function.

"I'm so sorry Ellie" She said and I nodded.

"Its okay I should just forget about him but we all know that wont happen"

"Are you going to be going to his birthday party?"

"I don't know probably I think I'm not sure I want to but I'm still really upset"

"Yeah well any guy would be lucky to have you and she is a bitch" She said and I started to laugh.

After she said that it made me think that I am upset about a 18 year old when I'm 20. I'm older than both of them. Whatever I just need to stop thinking about them. I should just enjoy the fact I'm single.