Life As A Teasdale

Ch.61

It's been a few days since New Years and I have talked to Harry. He says he misses me and doesn't want to be there. I can tell in his voice it's true. I feel bad for him. I am slowly letting go of the kiss. I guess we both need to trust each other or I need to trust him. I know we had stuff happen in the past but we both promised. I was going to go hang out with my friend Brad. I haven't seen him in forever. His boyfriend is out of town so we thought we would hang out. I've known him since I was 13 we have been friends for a very long time. He always calls me if he has a problem or what's to tell me something he can't trust to tell anyone else. He is a great person. I arrived at the restaurant we were meeting at. It wasn't a place that was always packed. I saw him sitting down and I walked faster.

"Brad" I said as he stood up to hug me.

"Ellie you look so good"

"Thank you so do you" I said sitting down and taking off my coat.

"How have you been it's been so long" I said smiling at him.

"I've been great I have been traveling with Mathew"

"I've been traveling too"

"I know you have what is this with Harry Styles and you dating?"

"Oh we aren't-"

"But you told me you were before"

"Yeah I know I don't really know what we are right now"

"Oh well I'm sorry"

"It's fine I'm just getting tired of what's going on"

"I'm sorry El it will be okay"

"I know" I smiled.

We spent the rest of the time talking and ate our lunch. I am really missing Harry and don't now what we are. He has been hanging out a lot more with Kendall and I'm getting a lot more upset. Does he want to just be friends with me. I know we always do stupid stuff like this and other stuff but I know he isn't cheating. It's so hard. I know they finally left that Mammoth place I should just call him. I don't care if I'm interrupting their time he is my boyfriend. I drove home and it started to rain. I had my phone plug in and playing music Harry downloaded. It's good music. I looked over in the passenger seat and imagined him sitting there. I remember driving with him and holding his hand. Or when he would drive my car. I remember taking him to the place I would always go. I miss him. I got a text saying everyone is at Lou's place so I drove there. I arrived and knocked on the door. It opened and I saw Gemma, Tom, Lux, Lou, and my mom. I walked in and said hi to Gemma. I gave her a hug and sat down. She talked to me about stuff. She is so sweet. Like her brother. They are both so kind and sweet but sometimes Harry can be rude. But not in a bad way he apologizes right after. She talked to me about how Christmas was with her family. They were cooking dinner later that night. We all stayed and it was really good.

It was getting late so I was going to leave. I said bye to everyone and drove home. My mom said she would be back soon. My father is out of town for business. I drove home and planned on calling Harry. I reached my house and sat on the couch. I looked at Harry's contact and was about to call it. I can't I locked my phone and went to the kitchen. I got a glass and went to fill it up. My phone started to ring and I dropped the cup and it broke.

"Shit" I yelled moving so I don't step on the glass. I run over to my phone and see Harry calling me.

I don't know if I should answer. I mean he is probably "busy" but I do have to clean up with mess of glass before my mom gets home. I let my phone ring out as I clean up the mess of glass. I throw it away and make sure there is nothing left. My phone has rang 5 times now. I call him back and he answers right away.

"Ellie god why weren't you answering are you okay?"

"I'm fine I was cleaning up this glass I dropped before my mom gets home"

"Oh okay I was just checking"

"Yeah don't worry"

"Well how was your day?"

"It was good.... Well long I am exhausted"

"Yeah so am I even though it's still not late here"

"Yeah well how is.... The weather there?"

I was about to ask a question I was not going to say or ask so I have no idea why I almost did.

He laughed and I smiled. His laugh is so beautiful.

"It's good now why did you ask that?"

"I don't know" I laughed with him.

"I love you baby"

His words made me lean agents the wall.

"I love you too"

"I know I haven't been the best boyfriend lately and I kno-"

"You are the best boyfriend I could ask for that anyone could ask for"

"But I lied to you before and I said I would never hurt you again and I did because I left-"

"Stop talking and listen I know I was and still am upset that you did that but don't live in the past let's move on"

"Okay well you are the most beautiful person I have ever met and kissed and hugged"

"Well thank you so are you"

We spent the rest of my night talking on the phone and I guess in a way "bonding". I don't know how to explain it but I felt better about him being away. I finally drifted off. I was in my moms bed. She didn't come home yet but I was ready to sleep.