Life As A Teasdale

Ch.147

I watched Harry walk into the hotel room and he looked up at me.

"Hi" He walked over to my bag.

"Do I have a shirt in there?"

"I don't know? Look" I said confused and he pulled my bag onto the bed.

"What are you doing" I asked and he threw things out.

"I'm going out today and I can't find this shirt"

"You have to wear a pacific shirt?"

"Yeah"

He's been gone for 2 days. He stays at his friends house here and we've talked like 3 times in those two days. Now he comes back to find a shirt and is being a little rude.

"It's not in there" He sighed and I stood up.

"Maybe it's in one of your bags? Did you look well enough?"

"I did and I can't find it"

"I don't have it"

"I don't know where I would have placed it"

I watched him throw my stuff back in the bag and set it on the floor again.

"I'm just going to go" He looked at the bag one more time and he walked towards the door.

"What the fuck is wrong with you" I asked and he turned around and let go of the door.

"What?"

"Don't come in here in a mad mood because you can't find a shirt. Don't talk to me in a rude tone and not even say hi or bye. I mean really we haven't even talked in 2 days and when we see each other you treat me like shit. What's your fucking problem"

"Well it's pretty frustrating when you can't find something"

"Just leave"

"What?"

"You don't even care about us anymore and I can't sit here doing this shit"

He opened his mouth but I cut him off.

"You can have this shit back too" I took off the matching ring he gave me and threw it at his feet and took off the necklace and also threw at him.

He caught it and bent down to get the ring.

"El"

"Just leave. You clearly don't care at all anymore" I yell and tears start to come forward.

"Wait"

"No, just stop doing this shit" I walked to the door and opened it.

"I do care"

"No you don't" I let the first of many tears fall from my eyes.

I got him to leave and cried on the bed and he texted me saying that we need to talk about this. I don't want to talk about anything. I can't do this, not again.

I laid in bed and looked at Harry leaving dinner and he looked sad. I knew I could have taken it a different way.

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I woke up and Harry was coming over. I agreed to talk to him before the awards. I was hurt the way he talked to me yesterday but I mean I've learned to not shut him out. I took a shower and cried my hair. I put a little makeup on and put on jeans and a t shirt.

There was a knock on the door and I opened it to see him. Lou left for a while so I thought it would be a good time for him to come over.

"Hi" He walked in and I shut the door.

"How are you" He asked and I shrugged.

"Fine"

"Thanks good" He sat down on the opposite bed.

We sat down and faced each other.

None of us said a word. I don't think we know what to say. I don't mind saying something first but I don't know what to say.

"I'm sorry about yesterday" He started and I looked at him.

"I was a total dick. I have been to you for a while now and I'm so sorry. I know we had a nice conversation the other day but we just- I just blew it"

"You always say sorry and I hate hearing it"

"You're right"

"Harry we are so stupid"

"What do you mean?"

"We keep saying we are going to try but we don't. We might as well give it up already because we just lie all the time to ourselves"

"I don't want to lose you"

"I don't want to lose you either but I'm tried of being in a relationship were we aren't even happy all the time"

"I know" He sighed and I pushed my hair out of my face.

The door opened and I looked at the wall so they wouldn't see I am crying.

"Harry we got to leave in 20 minutes"

"Okay" He yelled back and I looked at him.

"I don't want to have a speed conversation and I don't want this to happen later" He looked at me and got on his knees in front of me.

"Can we try one more time please and make it work" He held my hand and I whipped my eyes.

"I'm sorry" I looked at him and he changed.

"What?"

"I want to try one more time but not right now. I'm sorry" I pulled him into a hug and cried.

"Ellie please"

"Harry I know how this will be you will move on and I'll move on too. We'll be okay. I will still always be around... Just not like this" I whipped a tear off my cheek and he looked at me.

I leaned in and kissed his lips one last time.

We talked for 5 more minutes and left for the AMAs. I would be leaving after that and flying to New York to spend time with my American Phoebe. I'm going to stay there till thanksgiving. I don't celebrate it but I thought I would this yeah with her.