Life As A Teasdale

Ch.73

The car ride was silent. I don't even know what to say to him. I notice that we were close. I turned off my phone and we reached the place. We got out of his car and I punched in the code to the building. We could either take the elevator or the stairs. I don't know if I want to take the elevator. But Harry was walking towards them.

"Those are broken... They are getting fixed tomorrow" I lied and he walked towards the stairs.

"It's not that high up" I said and began to walk up the stairs.

Once we reached the office I unlocked the door. I stepped inside and it was clean. This is my fathers other office. More like his one away from his work building and our house. I took off my coat and was scared. I don't know why it's not like Harry is going to kill me. He set his coat next to mine and I sat on the couch. He sat in front of me in a chair. His eyes are on me and I felt like I can't move.

"Um well where should we start?" He asked and I sat back.

"Can you first explain why you even did this?"

He looked at the wall and then back to me. He looked tired and upset. He probably isn't upset but he is tired.

"I know you would want me to say it was for management and I know I told you it was that.... But it really was but I might have messed up. It wasn't suppose to happen. I did kiss her but I don't like her as much as I love you. It started off for management but might had turned into kissing but nothing more. We are friends like I told you but I shouldn't have kissed her. I know how much that hurts you and I know I said I would never do that again and I lied"

I wasn't crying yet which is a good thing.

"I am beyond sorry for what I did and I know you hate that word because when people say it they don't mean it but please believe me Ellie I know you kissed Evan so in this case we have both messed up but I don't even know when we messed up. We are perfect for each other. We shouldn't be doing this."

"I know Harry I know but why? Do you have feelings for her" I said now letting the tears go.

"No I... Not the way I do for you"

"But do you know how much I needed you and how upset I am."

"I know I wasn't here for you"

"No you weren't"

He got up and moved closer to me. He put his arm around my shoulder and I cried into his chest.

"I'm here now"

"But you weren't then"

"I know I'm so sorry"

"I want to take you back but I don't know if I should"

"I wouldn't blame you if you didn't but we both know that we need each other"

"But how can I trust you... You said before I could trust you and look where it led us"

"I know Ellie I messed up I did but I need you"

"You clearly didn't need me when you were kissing her"

"Really? What about when you kissed Evan? It's the same thing"

"No it's not Harry we aren't together and I kissed him when you were probably kissing her"

"I'm sorry"

I stood up so I could breath. I walked around the couch and looked out the window. I saw cars drive by and I heard Harry walk behind me.

"Come here" He said and I whipped my tears but more kept coming.

"Ellie please come here"

"No Harry"