Life As A Teasdale

Ch.85

I was heading to the airport and Harry was driving me. I held his hand the whole way. We had a conversation about all these people we knew.

"Remember when I threw cake at you so you attacked me?" Harry asked looking forward and I started to laugh.

"Yes that was good times"

"That was before we where together and I still thought you were so cute"

"When we first met you were so awkward you were like are you Lou's niece and I was like yeah?"

He laughed and I started to laugh as well.

"What was I suppose to say?"

"I don't know but I thought our first conversation was cute"

"So did I" He smiled and we pulled up the the airport and we stopped smiling.

"I don't want you to go Ellie Teasdale"

"And I don't want to leave you Harry Styles" I said and leaned over and kissed his lips.

"Call me when you land"

"As always"

"I will see you in like 6 days? Sounds great okay good I will get you the plane ticket"

"Harry I don't need you to buy me a plane ticket"

"I know I know I just hope you come"

"I will see what I can do I love you but I'm going to miss my flight"

"Okay I love you so much"

"I love you too"

I said goodbye and gave him a long hug and kiss. I walked into the airport and got a text from him. He told me I had a nice ass and I started to laugh. After I did everything I finally sat on the plane. I was seated next to a little girl. She was flying by herself but she was so cute. I smiled at her and it reminded me of Lux. Once the plane took off I told her it would be okay. This is going to be a long flight. I watched as the little girl fell asleep and her head was leaning towards me. I took a picture because it was cute. I was listening to music and was getting tired. I closed me eyes to take a nap.

Once I landed and went back home my parents where waiting for me and I gave them a hug. It seems like forever since I have seen them. They told me about the funeral and where it's going to be. We spent a few hours talking and then I went to my room. I had to call Harry so before I went to bed I talked to him. I texted him the photo of the girl and then went to sleep. I already miss him a lot.

When I got up next the day I sat up and looked at my phone. I had a text from Lou and a few others from my friends. I got up and walked downstairs. My mom was cooking eggs and I sat down. She looked at me and smiled.

"How did you sleep?"

"Good I needed it"

"Was the flight okay?"

"Yeah there was this adorable little girl sitting next to me and she fell asleep on me"

"Aw how cute was she by herself?"

"Yeah"

After I ate and took a shower I drove to Lou's. We were going to hang out since I haven't seen her in a while. When I arrived I knocked on the door and I heard Lux. When the door opened I bent down and picked her up and gave her a hug.

"Lux I've missed you how are you?" I asked and she told me hi.

I laughed and walked in. I set her down and gave Lou a hug. I set my bag down and pushed my hair out of my face.

"How have you been? Was LA nice?"

"I've been good and yes LA was great Harry wants me to come back after the funeral but I don't know I think he should just come back but how have you been? They book is looking nice I saw your photo of Gemma she looked really pretty"

"Its great and if you weren't so stubborn you could have been in it but you don't want to be"

"Lou I'll be in your next one and you can make it about me" I joked and we sat down.

I love being home with my family and spending time with them. They are funny and say the funniest things. I do miss Harry but I have a life back home even though I do nothing. After a while we made dinner.

I left after dinner and headed home. On my way home I played music and thought about how I wish I could have been here to say goodbye to my grandad. Once I arrived home I sat down and watched a movie with my parents. It was almost over so I just sat for the rest of it. I was texting Harry most of the time. The last thing I remember of the night was closing my eyes and falling asleep. It has been a busy week and I need to just relax. When I woke up I laid in bed and was on my phone. I was still tired so I just fell asleep again. Sleep can't hurt anyone. Sleep is what I need and I shall get it.

"El? El? Wake up" I heard my mom say sitting on my bed trying to wake me up.

"What?"

"I know you want to sleep but get up and do something"

"Why I was just sleeping"

"Yeah for the whole day yesterday it's a new day hun"

"What really?"

"Yes did you not sleep in California?"

"I did but clearly not enough"

She laughed and I laid my head down I my pillow again.

"Are you okay?" She asked rubbing my knee.

I shrugged. I was upset about my granddad. I can't believe he is gone it doesn't seem right.

"Is it about granddad?"

"Yeah"

"Aw Ellie"

My mom moved next to me and laid her head by mine. She smoothed my hair down and wrapped her arm around me. I had tears gather in my eyes and we sat in silence. I know I will be okay one day but for now I'm sad and upset. It was going to happen some day I just wish it didn't have to be now. He won't be able to go to my wedding now. I never thought of that. I held my moms arm and she and I didn't say a word. I liked the quiet. I always have I find it nice at some points but sometimes I hate it. But it's something I really do love. I can always think when it's quiet and I can listen.

"It's going to be okay I promise you"

"I know but I feel bad for not calling as much as I should have"

"No no no don't worry he knew you were busy he knew you had a life"

"No I spent most of my time with Harry I could have called but I didn't. I was selfish and spent my time with him. I don't have a life" I cried and she whipped my tears away but they kept on coming because I feel so bad about this.

I have this feelings that part of it has to do with me but it doesn't have to. I know it doesn't but I don't know why I'm thinking that. I know I should be strong but he was my best friend when I was little. My mom told me everything will be okay and do come down stairs to eat something. When she left my room I went to take a shower.