Life As A Teasdale

Ch.69

I woke up and looked around. I wasn't in my bed. I then realized I was in my parents room. Phoebe was asleep right next to me but close to the edge. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I woke up Phoebe to ask her what's going on.

"Phoebe wake up"

"Wake up" I said shaking her and she finally sat up.

"Ellie your awake are you okay?"

"Yeah my head hurts but I'm fine why are you here? Not that it's a bad thing I'm just wondering?"

"Do you remember what happened before you blacked out"

"Yeah why?"

"You tried to kill yourself"

"What no I didn't? I would never do that" I said getting out of my parents bed.

They really thought I would try to kill myself?

"You called me in tears saying you wanted to leave"

"This place. I don't want to live here I want to move far away so I can try to forget about all of this. Because everything that has happened here is bad"

"What?" She asked sitting next to me at the foot of the bed.

"Remember when I was 13 and I liked Randy Williams?"

"Yeah?"

"Remember how he asked me to dance but Amber being the bitch she is ruined it? After that I said I would like anymore guys but I ended up liking a lot more. But each time I liked a new guy the more hurt came. Like when I thought I had a prom date but he lied. Or the time Brandon Peterson embarrassed me in front of the whole school. There are way more things I could list. 8 years of hell I have kept inside. I never shared how I felt about any of the things that happened to me to anyone. Then I met Martin. I thought he was amazing I thought he was great but no I was way wrong. He broke my heart.... I was a mess remember? But did I share that with you. I didn't did I. I never shared a thing. I told myself I would never ever like or fall in love again but I was wrong again. I met Harry. He had me laughing and smiling again. He had me living life in a great way. I loved him I still do love him with all of my heart. More than my heart I love him so fucking much he doesn't even care. Now look I am so upset and heartbroken. Yet again. I think I have the right to leave because 8 years of terrible things"

She looked at me and tears started to form in her eyes. I was already crying having to go down memory lane.

"Ellie I'm so sorry I had no idea you felt this way" She wrapped me in her arms and gave me a long hug and I smiled when she pulled away.

There was a knock at the door and she got up to go get it. I heard a man talking so I went to go see who it was. I saw Evan standing there and Phoebe left to let us talk.

"Ellie are you okay Phoebe called me and I came over"

"I'm fine thanks"

He gave me a hug and we sat down in my living room.

"I know you may not want to talk about what happened but why do you want to leave?"

"For 8 years I have kept my feelings to myself. Those 8 years have been spent here. I hate it I hate having those memories. My ex boyfriend is the love of my life. I know we aren't together anymore but I still love him so much. He is my everything. We did so much together I cant just let that go. I called him yesterday and really told him how I feel about all this. I also told him what you told me. Right now I don't think he will come back for me. I then told him how we kissed but he didn't say anything because then I told him I was leaving and then he was getting worried"

I stopped talking because I don't want to tell him my life story.

"Your ex boyfriend seems like a dick" He said and I looked up at him.

"Don't say that he's not a dick" I didn't even think I just got mad. But then again he is one but I still love him.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to.... Your right he is one"

I looked at him and his blue eyes looked nice in the light. I gave him and hug and he hugged me back. I thought back to when Harry and I were giving out gifts on this couch before he left. I started to have memories of us doing so much stuff here in the room. I looked up at Evan and he smiled. I know I shouldn't kiss him but his lips look so kissable right now. I know I shouldn't because I just ended things with Harry but then again look what he did. Evan's eyes looked at my face and I slowly moved forward. I could feel his breath agents my face. I finally pushed my lips on his and hesitated at first. I pulled away and he looked at me. I quickly kissed him again. His arm pulled my back closer to him and I wrapped my arm around his neck and he opened his mouth. I thought of Harry's lips again. He can kiss way better but then again he will always be my number 1. Evan's tongue slipped into my mouth and I relaxed. I pulled away when I heard the front door open. I sat back down on my spot next to Evan and then got up. I found my parents standing in the kitchen.

"Ellie" My mother cries out and comes and hugs me.

My parents asked me why I tried to kill myself and I told them they have it wrong. I them explained how I don't want to live here anymore. I know I won't move but I want to. They still don't Evan is in this house. They only know Phoebe is here. I truly don't want my mom knowing he is here. I need to get him out. I made sure Phoebe showed them something that wasn't near the door and living room. Once they left I got up and found Evan on his phone.

"Sorry about that and I hate saying this cause it sounds rude um but like my family and I need to talk an-"

"Leave? Of course I totally understand"

"I'm sorry about kissing you" I said as he stood up.

"No don't be I kissed you back"

"I know I shouldn't be saying this but do you think my ex boyfriend will ever take me back after I kissed you?"

He laughed and looked at me.

"He cheated so it's not that bad"

I smiled and he hugged me goodbye. I walked him to the door and he drove off. My parents came back just in time and Phoebe left. My parents and I had dinner and spent the rest of the night watching movie. It's the least I can do after this day. It makes me sad to know that Harry still hasn't called to see if I was alright. Some guy he is.