Life As A Teasdale

Ch.167

I flew here to LA with Harry and have spent all the time with Bridget and Molly. We went to Coachella and I haven't seen Harry since we left the airport. I planned it to be like because even though we are back together it just doesn't feel like it's official and we aren't even affectionate in front of people.

I'm headed back to London now but made plans to see Harry before I leave. I know he will be here for way too long buts that's how it always is.

His car was by the front door of the little coffee shop I ran into him when we weren't on speaking terms.

"Hey El" He stood up and hugged me.

His lips touched mine and I sat down. I sat my phone on the table and he pushed his hair out of his face.

"Are you leaving right after this?"

"No, like 5 more hours"

"Oh can I take you to the airport?"

"I have Molly"

"Please?"

"If you want to?"

"I do"

"Okay that's fine" I smiled and took a sip of the drink he ordered me.

"So how was Coachella"

"It was Coachella" I smiled and he laughed.

"I've missed you" He frowned.

"Well I mean-"

"Ellie don't" He looked worried.

"Harry we both spent a lot of time together we can spend time away"

"So then why are you saying well"

"Because when we spent time apart we end up spending way too much time"

"You're right. I'm sorry"

"It's fine don't worry about anything between us"

We talked for a little while longer until I drove back to Bridget and Molly's. When I arrived Bridget was the only one there sitting on the couch.

I sat down next to her and laid my head back. She turned to me and began to grin.

"What?"

"So how did the talk with you and Harry go?"

"Ugh I want to be with him but I just don't think it will ever work out again"

"Don't say that"

"It's true we just always argue"

"You argued the whole time?"

"No, but we did and then I said it was fine just so we could drop it"

"Do you worry about what's between you guys?"

"Yes, all the time. Even when we were friends I was scared that some how something or someone would end that"

"Well don't worry it will be fine you just got to trust him"

"I've trusted him before"

We both ended up laughing and I got ready to leave.

Harry arrived at their house and Molly let him in. She left the door open and he took my bag out of my hand.

I hugged Molly and Bridget goodbye and told them I would be back soon.

I watched everything pass by as Harry and I headed to the airport. He had the windows down and the music up. It makes me think of the time we had in London a while ago. I miss the days in London when we just stayed in together all day everyday. Things change and I understand that now, my life wasn't suppose to be a fairytale just yet.

"It's going to be a long flight isn't it?"

"Yeah"

"Call me when you land?"

"Sure"

I kept looking at the window and he looked at me. I could feel his eyes on me and I didn't mind, but I didn't want him to crash.

"Eyes on the road"

"Just to let you know I'm a wonderful driver"

"Mhm" I turned his face forward and he laughed.

I moved my hand away from his face and made a decision. Why do I always come up with the dumbest shit when I leave him?

We arrived at LAX and he parked in a private area.

"Hey before I go can I talk to you real quick?"

"What?" He licked his lips and I took off my sunglasses.

"When we watched that movie together and we decided to get back together I just didn't feel like it was a good idea. It just seemed not real enough"

"I knew this was coming" He laid his head back.

"I love you and you know it, we don't need to be together for us to know that. We had something I'll always keep but let's not waist our time. We can still be together if that makes since"

"I'm not going to fight for this anymore" He tied his hair back and I swallowed the lump in my throat.

I wasn't expecting that from him but it actually hurt.

"I knew we should have kept on waiting and I'm sorry for basically making you come back to me" He shook his head and I whipped my eye.

"Why are you crying?" He leaned over and whipped away the tears.

"Because saying goodbye to you is always hard for me but this goodbye is just the hardest one"

"El"

"It's okay, it's meant to be this way and I'm going to be okay"

He held me in his arms for a while and I had tears flow down my cheeks and I didn't say a word.

I looked at the clock and let go of him. This is finally it.

"Well, until next time Ellie Teasdale" He nodded.

"Until next time Styles" I smiled and he kissed my cheek.

"Don't forget the H" He smirked but it was a sad one.

I looked down at the tattoo and nodded. I grabbed my bag and put my sunglasses on.

I looked at him and didn't want to walk away. Finally I pushed myself to turn around and held back from wanting to cry. I'm pathetic I began to think walking into the airport.

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When I landed in London I had Sam pick me up and I opened his back door and threw my bag in and got in the front seat.

"Someone looks drained" He hugged me and I nodded.

"Why are you sunglasses on your head?"

"Because I left them on while I slept on the plane" I huffed taking them off my head.

It was 1 in the morning and I was going to just stay at his place.

"So how was your trip?"

"Good at the beginning and I ruined it by letting Harry take me to the airport"

"Jesus what did you do?"

"I made things right by ending it"

"You two are crazy"

"Yeah but I like crazy but sometimes crazy gets too crazy and it hurts"

"Aw El" He squeezed my leg and I leaned on his arm and closed my eyes.

"I'm going to sleep"

"Okay" He patted my leg and I did fall asleep.

(AHHHH I'M SO SORRY GUYS! I'm trying to update more I truly am but I've been busy with soccer but I'm trying to write more. I had chapters from when they were still on tour but deleted them. Hope you are all doing well! Xx