Life As A Teasdale

Ch.71

I left the bathroom and looked at Nick. I have him a friendly glare. I wasn't mad at him. Well I am but I guess I shouldn't. I finished eating and left. I am still going to Harry's party. I know he wants me there and I want to go. I already got him things for his birthday that I was saving. I got them when we were dating. I drove to St. Laurent one of his favorite places. I don't know why he loves this place so much. I have gotten a few things from here before hit he has an obsession. I looked around and saw some nice shirts. I picked those up and got him a new pare of jeans and another ring. I handed the lady my card and my phone started to ring.

"Hello?"

"Hi sweetie how are you?" My dad asked me.

"I'm good what's up?"

"Do you want to come to dinner with us tonight"

"Yeah of course when"

"At 7 but what time will you be home?"

"I am just picking up a few things I have one more stop and then I will be home"

"Okay I will see you later love you"

"Love you too bye"

I hung up and got him a few more things. I drove home after I was done and put Harry's stuff in my closet. I laid on my bed and breathed out. I sat up and got under my covers. I need a nap. I haven't truly had a good rest in forever. I closed my eyes and drifted off.

When I woke up I slept for a long time. I turned on the water to my shower and let it heat up. I then remembered I was going to call Harry. I pulled out my phone and it rang. He finally answered and his voice was sweet.

"Well you finally call"

"Sorry I forgot and then I fell asleep"

"Oh it's okay now what did you want to talk about?"

"Um I forgot"

"Oh" He laughed and I sat on my toilet lid.

"Are you in the shower I can hear water running"

"No I just started it"

"You know we never have showered together"

"Yeah I know and we won't"

"Ellie"

"Harry"

"I'm sorry"

"Stop saying that"

"Why?"

"Because I've heard it to many times"

"Well I am"

"When you come back can we talk about things?"

"Of course we can"

I looked at the floor and tears started to form. I miss Harry. I'm glad we can have a conversation over the phone but that doesn't mean I'm still mad. I looked up at my wall and I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came.

"Are you okay?" Harry asked softly and I shook my head even though he can't see me.

"Yeah in fine" I lied crying quietly.

"No your not"

"Well do you expect me to be?"

"No" He sighed and I just started to cry.

"I miss you so much Harry"

"I miss you too"

"But I had an amazing year with you and I don't want to make that year go to waist"

"I don't either"

"Then somehow we need to make it right and fix this"

"I know we do and we will"

"I always seem to come back to you so easily and half of me feels like I shouldn't and the other half says I need to"

"Which side do you want to believe?"

"I want to believe the part that's telling me to come back but I don't want to be wrong"

"I know you don't want to and you don't deserve to be treated like this"

"I don't hate you I hope you know that"

"I know you don't"

"And you aren't a bad guy you are so sweet and I would never have a hate feelings towards you"

"Thank you"

"Do you think we will ever get back together"

"I'm waiting for you to want me back because I miss you"

"I miss you too"

"Don't cry please I want you to smile"

"I can't smile without you here"

"Aw baby"

"Remember I'm not your baby"

"You are though"

"Ugh"

He laughed and I smiled.

"Well I need to take a shower I think all the hot water is gone"

"Alright have fun at dinner tonight"

"How did you know about that?"

"Lou"

"Of course"

"Bye Ellie"

"Bye Harry"

I hung up and took my shower.

Once I was ready I walked down stairs and my parents were done getting ready. I was going to ride with them. I sat in the back and laid my head on the back of the seat. I watched the places we passed. I need to see Harry and we need to talk. About a lot of things. I need to know what even happened between them. Our car came to a stop and we reached the restaurant. I got out of he car and we walked into the restaurant. My parents told the woman about our reservation and we got our table. We arrived first and sat down. We had a big booth and I sat down and my parents started talking. I pulled out my phone and was on Instagram. My mom looked at my phone.

"Oh Instram let's take a picture"

I looked up at her and laughed. She is really funny woman.

"Okay then"

I held out my phone and smiled with her and my dad. I made the caption say "My mom wanted to take a picture... Dinner with the family!"

It's been 5 minutes and I excused myself from the table to go to the bathroom. I walked to the other end of the restaurant and pushed opened the door. I used the restroom and washed my hands. I looked in the mirror one last time. I then looked in the full length mirror and fixed my skirt and messed with my tights. I had on tights with a black skirt and top and boots. I thought I looked good enough to walk back to the table and pass all the people. I grabbed my phone and walked back. I looked at people eating. Most of them were old. I was getting closer to our booth. I looked up from the floor and saw Lou, Lux, and Tom sitting down. My eyes made their way to my spot and I dropped my phone and almost tripped. My heart felt like I was being stabbed. I was actually scared and I don't know why. I shouldn't but I am. I can't even think right now.