Life As A Teasdale

Ch.86

It was the day of my granddads funeral and I put on a black dress and heals. I walked down the stairs and my parents where waiting to go. I got in the car along with them and drove off. When we arrived I saw Lou and she gave me a hug. I haven't cried yet which is a good thing. I went to the bathroom before it started. I sat in the front row when it started. The man talked about how a good man he was and I had my arm linked with my Lou's. I whipped my eyes when my dad started to talk. Telling stories of him. I was scared to go up and talk once it was my turn. I slowly walked up to the podium and looked at all the people here. I saw Phoebe sitting down next to my mom and she smiled and I opened my mouth to speak.

"Uh well I don't know where to start? My granddad was the best to have, he was my best friend when I was little. Whatever I wanted I could ask him and I would get it but then my parents would get mad. But he wouldn't care he would laugh about it. That's one thing you had to love about him. He's was so funny but so giving. It's hard to think that he's gone and you won't see him again." I had tears roll down my cheeks. This is really awkward and with them staring at me like this it makes it harder.

"I've never done this before so it's really awkward to be honest with all of you. I really will miss him singing along to his favorite song that would come on or when he would cook. I will miss hearing his laugh and how he was on Christmas"

After me talking more about him and we could all leave I got a text from Harry. People kept coming up to me and telling me sorry. I had to escape and let my parents talk to everyone. I went to the back and called Harry. He picked up right away and his voice was the best thing to hear right now.

"Hi baby are you okay? How was the funeral?"

"It was fine I just want to go home and sleep and not think about anything"

"I wish I was there"

"It's okay I will see you when you come back"

"Which isn't for like another week"

"I know but I can live"

"Do you want to fly out?"

"No I'm going to stay here and just wait for you" I laughed and he chuckled.

"I love you" He said and I smiled.

"I love you too Harry"

I said goodbye and walked back out. I talked to a few other people and then we left. After the long day I laid in bed and watched movies. I didn't really want to do anything. I miss Harry and I miss my granddad but I can't have either one of them. I wasn't really sure if I want to stay here. As in my home with my parents. I love staying with them but I want to get my own place. I've always been with them and want a change. But I know I will end up missing them and not be able to do it so I'm here. I hope one day I will have enough courage to live by myself. I hate being lonely I want someone with me at all times. There are some times I don't want anyone around. Like when Harry and I broke up I didn't want anyone. The only one I truly did want was Harry. It's always been Harry ever since last year when we met and became friends I wanted him. I could never say it but when I did it felt nice. It is hard to date him but I will do anything to be with him. I love him so much and I hope he loves me as much as he says he does. My door opened and I stopped thinking and I saw my annoy bitch cousin. What is she doing here? I sat up and got out of my bed.

"What are you doing here?"

"We came to visit you guys and your wanted downstairs"

"You can knock next time"

"You can be less rude"

She is younger then me so I wasn't going to say what I wanted to. I walked down the stairs behind her and parented to push her. When I came down all of them where here. They all looked at me and said hi.

"Ellie we are going to go eat so go get dressed"

I turned around and walked up the stairs. I then stopped and looked at my mum.

"I really do want to go but I don't feel good I already threw up when we got here can I just stay home"

My dad looked at me and smiled. He knows I don't like them and knows what I'm doing. My dad is the best. He always helps me out and is always there for me.

"Sure El go rest we will be back later" He said and I walked up the stairs. I waited for them to leave.

Once I heard all of them leave I got dressed. I packed a bag because I won't be staying here when they are in town. Which will be a while. I put on my shoes and grabbed my keys. I walked down the stairs and locked the door and drove off. I drove to Lou's house and it was a long drive. Once I reached her house I knocked on the door. She opened up and I smiled.

"Can I spend the night for a couple of days?"

"Sure what happened?"

"My dad's family is here to stay and the oldest daughter annoys me to death I want to fucking punch her so I thought it would be best not to argue with a 16 year old so I came here"

"Well that's fine by me I could use a roomy"

I smiled and we hung out. She turned on a sad movie and I don't know why. I was sitting by myself and had a blanket over me and I was crying. Today really a sad movie. I looked over and saw she was crying too. I started to laugh and she did too. We talked about different things and my trip to LA. We stayed up pretty late talking and watching television. Finally we went to bed, I went up to the room Harry usually stays in when he is here. I set my bag down and saw a shirt hanging out of a dresser. I walked over and found one of Harry's shirt. I smiled and pulled it out. I held it in my hands and pulled out my phone texted Harry and told him I found his shirt and he texted me back with a picture of him laying down without a shirt on. I laughed and got ready for bed. I put his shirt on and laid in bed. I took a picture of me in his shirt and gave him a thumbs up. He ended up facetiming me and I answered and he was laying in bed looking so cute.

"What are you doing at Louise's and not your own place?"

"My family is in town again and I'm not staying there so I'm staying here for a little while"

"Oh so we will be sharing that bed together then?"

"Maybe?"

He smiled and I smiled back. He is so cute and looks tired. His voice even sounds nice. He told me about his day and how he is coming back soon. He also told me about the motorcycle Cal got. I pray he doesn't get one and falls off.

"Do you plan on getting one?"

"I need a licens for it but it would be nice"

"Don't die if you do"

He laughed and we talked a little longer. I was finally falling asleep and fell asleep talking to him. I haven't slept in forever it seems. I wish Harry was next to me but his shirt will do for tonight.

It's been the longest week of my life. My cousins are still here and finally Harry is coming back. I've missed him even though we saw each other not to long ago. Today I'm going to Bleach with Lou today. I slept in so I had to drive there without her. I got in my car and put my sunglasses on. I drove and had music playing and was still tired. I reached the shop and walked in. I walked to the back where she was and sat down. She was doing someone's hair and she said hi. We all got into a conversation about different hair colors. Once she was done with the girls hair I asked her to cut mine. I just got a little bit off. I sat at the table on the computer looking at swimsuits. I will need them for my trip I will be taking. My phone rang and it was my mum. I picked it up and talked to her about when I will be coming home. I told her how much I don't want to be around them and she thought it was mean. I know it is but they really are a pain in the ass. Once I was off the phone I headed back to my house so have dinner with them. I didn't want to but I had too.