Life As A Teasdale

Ch.138

The time I tried to call Harry he didn't even answer so I gave up. I cried because I was pissed off and new it really wasn't going to work out. I should not date for a few years and if I can ever love someone as much as I love him then I will.

I was packing to head to New York to see Phoebe and I was going with Phoebe, Stella, and George. Once we leave New York we are heading to LA. My plane leaves in two days but might as well get ready.

I got a drunk voicemail from Harry and he was with a girl it sounded like. I got mad and started to pack faster. I really done with him no matter how much I love him. I walked into the bathroom and grabbed my face wash and put it in my bag and grabbed other things.

My phone started to ring and it was my boyfriend Harry.

"Hello"

"Babe"

"What the fuck do you want?"

"Ellie I'm sorry"

"Oh save it Harry. I really can't take you anymore"

"Ellie it's not what is seems like"

"Then what the hell is it Harry? I can't keep on sitting here-"

"Then come see me"

"No, I'm not going to always fly out to see you. I don't even need you right now"

"So you are going to break up with me?"

"I won't know until I see you. When I do then I can tell you but for now goodbye"

"Fine goodnight" He shouted at me and I threw my phone and screamed.

I got ready to go to Lou's birthday dinner with the whole family. I will make this night end better than it started.

I put on black skinny jeans and a button up shirt Harry happened to buy me. I started to feel bad and picked up my phone.

"Hello?"

"Yeah?"

"Harry I'm sorry. I know we said we would try harder and what just happened was stupid. I'm sorry okay"

"I'm sorry too"

"Okay well I would stay and talk but I have to head to Lou's birthday dinner. I'll call you when it ends?"

"Sounds like a plan"

"I'm sorry"

"I'm sorry too"

I arrived at the resultant and sat next to Lux, and Heidi. It was nice to see everyone and Ben has gotten way taller. The waiter took everyone's order and I listened to Tom as he talked about something that happened last week.

I forgot about Harry during dinner until I was asked how we were doing. I told them great even though we aren't great. We need to work things out and talk face to face.

A cake was brought out and we all sang happy birthday to her and I smiled. That's going to be me in a few days. Wow 21, a year later 22. Lord pray for me. I started to laugh thinking of the conversation I had with Harry about my age and how I felt like I was getting older too fast. It's sad we won't spend my birthday the way we did last year but it's fine.

When I walked to my car I called Harry. It rang a few times and he picked up.

"How was the dinner?"

"Good"

"That's going to be you in a few days"

"I know. Scary"

"Only 21. You can drink in America"

"I already do"

"I know, well you won't get in trouble"

I laughed and drove down the street.

"About your birthday, what are you doing for it?"

"Just going to hang with friends"

"Really"

"You say it like you don't believe me"

"Well you said friends like you weren't excited"

"I rather be doing something else but you know life is life"

"Babe-"

"No, I have it planned out. It's going to be fun" I smiled even though he can't see it.

"I'm sorry babe"

"For what?"

"Not being there for your birthday"

"Harry it's fine. In fact you'll be closer than you think"

I probably should tell him I'm coming to LA but I rather not. I'm not even going to probably see him. I bet he has his days planned.

"I just got home and I'm going to head to bed"

"Okay... I love you and I really do mean it. I can tell you are pissed at me but you're trying to hide it. Now listen I don't want us to end things. I want to be with you on your birthday more than anything and don't cut me off. Ellie I promise next time I see you I will sit and we will talk because we definitely need to. I will let you go to bed but don't forget I love you a whole lot" I laid my head on my seat and shook my head.

"I love you too"

"Sleep well"

"I will. I love you so much"

"I love you too"

I hung up and ran inside. I hate being out by myself sometimes and right now I'm feelings that way. I opened the door and my mum was walking into her room.

"Mum"

"Yes?"

I walked to her and she looked at me and I started to cry.

"What happened?" She asked worried and I laid my head on her shoulder.

"I am so sad and lost right now and I need your help" I cried and she wrapped both arms around me.

"Why do you feel that way?"

"Because Harry and I have been arguing a whole lot and I really feel like we are going to break up and I'm okay with that and at the same time I'm not. I'm so confused and so sad"

She sat me on her bed and I laid my head on the pillows.

"Ellie, you and Harry are so in love. It's very obvious but I can see how you could be drifting. You should feel like this and do it to yourself."

"What are you saying?"

"I'm not telling you to break up with him but if he makes you cry this much then maybe you should take a break"

"Well great"

She laughed. "You don't have to listen to me"

I kept talking with her and finally fell asleep in my bed. It's lonely here without Harry. I really want to see him and just see him. I know I will forgive him when I see him because he makes me week but I have to stay true and strong. I will be very sad but I will live and we can always be friends. I'm glad I got to have such an amazing time with him and I still do hope for future memories. As for now I'm going to pray and hope we make it through this mess.