There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 11: Emotionly broke

You don't move from the couch for hours. You just lay there staring into space. You feel like someone cut you open and scraped all happiness from inside of you and stitched you up with bitterness. You don't cry. You can't cry, you have nothing left inside.

(Y/F/N) comes home and sees you on the couch. She throws the bags onto the counter and food falls out of the bag. She runs over and kneels down in front of me.

"(Y/N) what's wrong?" She asks taking your hands.

Your mind and body can't can't respond. You're all drained. You just stare into space. You know things are happening around you but you can't process it at all. (Y/F/N) shakes you. She tries to get you out of your trance.

"(Y/N), please tell me what's going on." She says tears forming in her eyes.

She screams out for Phil. She shakes you again. Saying your name over and over. You just blink. Phil comes running in.

"What's wrong with her?" He says kneeling down next to (Y/F/N).

"I don't know. She was like this when we got home. She's not responding to anything.

"Is she having a seizure or stroke?" Phil asks.

(Y/F/N) shakes her head. She squeezes your hands and starts to cry. She sends Phil to get Dan. Your body goes limp when she says Dan's name. Your body falls into the squishy cushions of the sofa. (Y/F/N) gasps when she watches you fall.

"(Y/N) please tell me what's wrong!!" She cries out.

You see genuine fear in your best friends eyes. But you can't bring yourself to do anything. Your so completely drained of life. You don't know where your happiness went. Dan comes down the stairs fear written across his face.

"What's happening!?"

"There's something wrong with (Y/N)!!" She screams out.

He comes closer to you. You want to run but you can't. You want to scream, cry, anything to make him leave. You want that liar out of your sight. He comes over and cups your face in his hand. You don't move a muscle. He looks into your eyes with his big brown ones.

What are you doing? Run!

Sit up and run!

But you didn't. You couldn't. You stayed in your place. You just couldn't do anything.  Concern grows in everyone's eyes.

"I think we should call an ambulance. She's not responsive at all." Phil says.

"Alright I'll call." (Y/F/N) say, her voice cracking in fear.

Dan sits down next to you. He leans you over so your laying in his lap. He strokes your hair. It gets harder to breathe.

"(Y/N) what's wrong!!" He says noticing you breathing weird.

The ambulance pulls up outside. Everyone waits for the paramedics to come up. They rush in and take you away on a gurney. They take you down the lift and though the lobby. The three come after you and (Y/F/N) comes with you in the ambulance.

They shine lights in you eyes.

"Pupils are majorly dilated."

They check your pulse and temperature

"No fever and low pulse."

They do hundreds of other things but you can't remember them all. You kinda zone out and shut out everything around you.

---time jump to A&E---

They drag you away and (Y/F/N) collapse on the ground. Dan and Phill run in up to her. Then you fat rolled away too far to see them. They pull you into a room and take you off the gurney. They put you into a CAT scan.

---time jump through 6 tests---

You wake up in a white room. Everything is white. The walls, ceiling, cabinets, Sheets everything. You see (Y/F/N) is in the corner in a plastic chair. She looks up and instantly makes her way over.

"Hey (Y/N). How you feeling?" She asks.

You still can't do anything. The doctors come in and (Y/F/N) jumps up and says:

"What's wrong with her!?"

One doctor gestures for her to sit down. And she obeys. She sits down at your feet.

"(Y/N) has no recent medical issues. She had her anorexia a number of years back."

(Y/F/N) interrupts. "What does that have to do with anything?"

"Miss (Y/F/L/N) please calm down. Her medical past seems to have been effecting her psychologically. Which seemed to effect her...deeper than you'd see in anyone else."

She looks down at you and you just block.

"She would be considered emotionally broke."