There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 96: Broken Phillip

  "What!?" Dan spits. "How dare you say you're supposed to be dead!?"

Phil says nothing. He just looks so sad. You reached out to take his hand but he just slaps it away. He stayed stable but the doctors moved him to the psych ward so you couldn't see him anymore. You had to go home.

You get in the car and drive Dan home. You definitely wanted to see the kids. They would give some sort of comfort. How were you going to explain their uncle slash second Dad was in the hospitals psych ward? Kim would understand but not Courtney.

When you get home Zoe was waiting. She gave both of you a hug and let you in. Kim and Courtney run up to you and give you and Dan hugs. Dan left quick and went to the kitchen.

"Mum where's Phil?" Kim asks.

"Come to my room and we can talk."

She follows you quick then shuts the door. You tried to figure out how to put this lightly for a 11 year old.

"Phil took pills. Too many. On purpose." You stumble out.

"He tried to kill himself." She replies bluntly.

"Yes."

"Oh my God. Why!?"

"He had a lot of reasons. Most I can't tell you. I can tell you that he didn't think he was going anywhere. He was upset with his life."

"I don't know what to do."

"Nothing."

"Can I see him?"

"No. No one can. He's in the psych ward."

"Oh.."

"Yeah. Make sure we can hide this from fans and stuff. You know how it is."

"Got it."

You leave the room and see Zoe playing with Lola and Courtney. Dan was in the kitchen with a bottle.

"Dan...don't do this. It's not worth it right now."

"It helps."

"I know how you are when you're drunk. Please stop drinking."

He looks at you for a second then puts it down. Suddenly you realise Dan's hugging you. The only thing either of you could do was hair stand there in each others arms.

"Can we sleep?" Dan asks.

"All right."

You both were disgusting. Neither of you showered for 5 days but it didn't matter. Nothing mattered. You crashed into the bed and fell asleep underneath Dan. He was your blanket but the cold still ran though your body.

In the middle of the night you wake up to a loud thunderstorm. The kind of thunder that rumbles through your entire body and shakes the whole flat. Dan was still asleep but he rolled off of you at some point. You got up and creeped into Phil's room. You needed to see if there was anything that could give you any answers.

His room was just the way it was when he went to kill himself. Bed unmade. Laptop on the floor. Phone on the windowsill. Dan's shoes in the corner. You eyes catch somethings sticking out firm under his pillow.

You make your way over and pull it out. It was a Polaroid of him and Dan. Your body runs cold again when you see Dan's lips on Phil's cheek. You flip it over and see the date October 24th, 2009. Wow that's old. But there was something else under the pillow too. A flash drive. You had bad experiences with them before. You need to watch it anyway

You snatch your laptop from your room and head to the lounge. The flash drive has a folder on it that says "vdvfd" you click it and a video pops up. It was the Valentine's Day video.