There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 41: Just a Bit Better

Just a bit of a trigger warning for this chapter. Mentions of cutting and depression.

Even after the mini mental breakdown you manage to fall asleep. Your dream that night was like a flash back.

Start of flash back---

You just finished your lunch. You are about 3 weeks into year 7. You make your way down the corridor and you heard some prep girls gossiping.

"I heard Hailey cuts herself."

That all you manage to pick up. Hailey. That's one of your good friends. The only Hailey in year 7. You instantly run to (Y/F/N).

"(Y/F/N) we kinda have a problem." You say between gasps.

She turns and faces you. You always thought she looked dorky with braces, big glasses, and red hair in two ponytails.

"What's wrong?"she says.

"Hailey is wrong." You whisper. You don't want to draw attention to the two of you.

"All right what's happening?"

"I think she's cutting herself."

Her concerned look grows scared. She's much closer to Hailey than you were.

"No that can't be right. She's too happy a person. There's no possible way she could be doing that."

"Maybe you should check on her (Y/F/N) just to be safe. I'm worried now."

Kids your age never really dealt with their friend doing this. She better not be cutting herself.

(Y/F/N) slams her locker and walks say with her red curls bouncing. She marched down the hall right to Hailey's locker. She stops right next to Hailey. You bolt towards them and skid to a stop next to (Y/F/N). She grabs Hailey's arm. Hailey winces and (Y/F/N) pulls up the sleeve.

14 cuts are scattered up her arm in perfect straight lines. There was one perfect cut down the middle of the horizontal ones.

End of flash back---

You burst out of your sleep. You were sweaty and nasty. Why did you have that dream? You got up out of bed and headed downstairs. All the lights were off and no one was down here. You could go to Dans. And that's what you're going to do.

You grab a pit of shoes and slowly but quietly open the door. The hallway is only lit by emergency exit signs. You jiggle the handle on their door and find it unlocked. You go in and Phil is in the kitchen.

"Oh hi Phil!!" You say.

"Hi (Y/N) where is your pants??" He says chuckling.

You look down and your legs are bare. Your bum and front are scarcely covered by your tee shirt.

"Pants are overrated."

You smile and walk away to Dans room. You climb the stairs to the hallway where Dans room is. There's a small light at the end. It gives off a small circle of light that's just enough to show the doors in the hallway.

You get to Dan's door and silently open it. You were surprised to see he was sleeping. It's only 22:46 and he's asleep. You make your way over to his bed. He's so perfect. His perfection isn't fair. There's nothing wrong with his face or his personality. You pull the duvet back and slide in.

Your skin comes in contact with his shirtless body and only boxers. Oh. Oh...all right. You snuggle up against him and to your surprise he  wrapped his arms around you.

"..mhmph...stop breaking in to..my flat love..."

"I'm good Danny."

"I love you." He whispers into your ear.

"I love you too." 

He drifts off into a slumber again. Hopefully you won't get anymore nightmares now that you have the best person in the world around you.