There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 64: The fear of Falling Apart

That morning you and Dan got up and got dressed. Dan took a shower in for the first time in forever. As he was straightening his hair you went to go wake up Phil. You go into his room and shake him a bit. He groans a bit and you hand him his glasses.

"What is it?" I asks in a husky voice.

"Would you like to come with Dan and I into town?"

He ponders it for a moment and the comes to a conclusion

"I'm going to pass. I have to film some videos."

"Alrighty!!"

You skip back to Dan and shut the door. Dan jumps he drops his straighteners onto his lap.

"Ow!!"

You giggle at Dan even though he's in pain. He turns and glares at you. You loved his eyes. Some people think brown eyes are boring but Dan...damn is eyes are great. Every time you see him you fall in love again and again.

The black shirt that usually climbed to his body is now baggy. The idea of Dan suffering is making your stomach churn. He goes back to straightening his hair. You go to the bathroom to do your makeup.

As you finish up you hear a "damn it." From the room. You drop your brush and run to Dan. You see him holding his hand that even from he distance you could see was burned. You go over and unplug his straightener and look at his hand. Sure enough between his thumb and index finger there was a large blister forming.

At that moment you remember the video Phil made when he and Phil did what you were supposed to do when you get burned. You pull Dan I to the bathroom and run his hand under the cold water.

"Ow ow ow ow ow." Dan said continuously.

You kissed him quickly to make him forget about the pain. After running it under cold water for ten minutes Dan pat drys his hand and grabs his stuff. You grab your phone and bag and head out.

When you and Dan got into the cab you could still see how lifeless his eyes were. He wasn't as joyful as he normally was. All you wanted to do was help him. You payed the taxi man and got out at the centre of London. You knew very well Dan would put on a facade so his fans wins suspect anything.

After literally 10 seconds of walking around fans came running up to you. A half hour of you and Dan taking pictures went by easily. Once the fans ran away you and Dan stopped in at a Starbucks. Dan went up to order and when you found a seat a litre girl ran up to you.

She looked to be about 8 or 9. She has long black ringlets down to her waist and eyes that were so strikingly blue they reminded you of Phil.

"Hi!" She chirped.

"Hi! What's your name?" You ask.

"Kimberly. I seen your videos. I'm quite a fan."

"Thank you!"

"I have a question. I'm not sure if you can answer it though."

"Come sit down we can chat."

She nods and sits down in the seat across form you. She was so darn adorable.

"Are you and danisnotonfire getting married?"

Shit. You haven't released it yet. You planned on doing that the day of. You can't just tell her can you?

"Can you keep. Big big secret?" You ask Kimberly.

"Sure!"

"You can't tell anyone. Not even your mum."

"That's easy. I don't have a mum or dad. I'm here with my orphanage."

"Oh. Well yes Dan and I are getting married."

She squeals in delight.

"What orphanage are you with."

"Tiffanies orphanage for girls."

That's when an idea clicked into your head. Once Dan gets better you're going to adopt this girl.

You and Kimberly say your goodbyes and she gives you a big hug. Dan comes back with your coffees.

He doesn't even ask about Kimberly.  He just stares at the coffee cup. You reach across the table and take his hand.

"You're okay Dan."

He doesn't respond. His hair covers his eyes and his cheekbones look more prominent against the soft skin of his face. His skin tone is  similar to Phil's now. The most sickening thing so the fans didn't even notice. And another sickening thing is he looks good. Hot even. It seems wrong to think but that's why the fans didn't notice.

"Dan do you want to go get your hair cut?"

He nods and you two pick up your drinks and leave. You wave to Kimberly across the room. She waves quickly back. You and Dan walk to the hairdressers. Dans fingers wrap around his coffee and you can see him shivering. The odd thing is it's like 26 degrees outside.

You get in and out of the hairdressers quick. Dans fringe is normal now but he still looks broken. You decide to bring him home. Phil's idea to get him out of the house didn't do much good.

When you get home Dan goes straight to his room. You slowly follow him and stand in the doorway. He pulls off his shirt and jeans and climbs into bed. But the most sickening thing you saw was the cuts scattered on his now thin arm.

You run to Phil's room and burst through the the door. Phil jumps and falls off the bed.

"What's wrong (Y/N)?"

"Dans cutting himself." You choke out.

All colour from Phil's face drained. He gets up and runs to you. He pulls you into a hug and falls down with you as you sob.

Before your sobs got to loud you heard Phil whisper

"This is 2012."