There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 29: Your adventure

Yes Aidan promised but you still can't get over Dan. He should be the one that is trying to get over you. Obviously that's not the case. You love Dan. You really do. You moved here to get away from Aidan and others. You met Dan. You fell in love. Then you lost your shit and got drunk and fucked everything up.

"Aidan!?" You call.

You tap his cheek to wake him up. His eyes flutter open and your met with the brown orbs your younger self fell in love with many years ago. He smiles the most perfect smile and you put your lips to his. You melt into the kiss. All your problems seem to disappear.

Aidan pulls away and says,

"How did I ever leave you."

You shake your head and smile. You go to your closet and pick out some clothes.

"Want me to look away?" He asks.

"No don't bother. Not like you haven't seen it." You say.

That hits you in a way you can't explain. It was a validation of what you did. You can't regret it. The alcohol makes you do things your subconscious wants to do.

You pull off your shirt and put on the new one. You feel Aidan's eyes on your back. You change your pants and turn back to Aidan.

"Come back into bed. I'm cold." He says in a whiny voice.

You roll your eyes.

"I have to go out." You say.

You head for the door and you hear Aidan get up. His footsteps tell you he is going to your bathroom.

You go downstairs and grab your converse and wallet. Your rummage around to find your key to your flat and then you head out. You walk quickly past Dan's door. You head to the lift. The fear of lifts never left your kind but over the past few years you gotten used to it. When your were 4 you got stuck in a lot with your friend and we're stuck for 8 hours. There were firefighters and press coverage. It was a big deal. Now whenever you go in one you get scared. You pressed the button that bring a you to the ground floor.

"Going down." The lift says in a monotone voice.

The doors open and you bolt straight to the doors. You head out into the brisk morning air. The sky was overcast like always. The air smelled of smog and other smells no one can identify. You head to the curb and catch a taxi. Your mind flashes back to the first time you took a taxi here. The lady was cheerful and polite. This wasn't the case. The man was old and the cab reeked of cigarettes.

"Just get me far from here." You say softly.

He groans and steps on the gas.

You needed to get away. That's all you could think. You needed to clear your mind. Too much is happening and all you want to do is die. Another one of your panic attacks was coming on. You have your phone. But if you go on people could see your location. They could find you. You close your eyes and focus on anything but your life right now. Your phone buzzes and rings. You ignore it. The only person you wanted to talk to hates you.

After a while the notifications get annoying. You peek at them and see they are all Aidan and (Y/F/N). Then there was 2 from Phil. No Dan.

The taxi man stops and you hand him the money. You get out of the taxi and watch him drive away. You look around your surroundings. Old buildings. Graffiti. Dumpsters. He took you to the slums of London. Brilliant. It smelled of garbage and depression. You stay in your place. You're scared of what will happen if you go into this neighbourhood. It's not filled with the most friendly people. You don't want to chicken out and call someone to get you. So you take the first steps into the neighbourhood.

People walk by you not even acknowledging your presence. You go deeper and deeper and you see a low income housing plot. Children play a game of football with a ball that's so dirty you find it hard to believe the octagons were ever black and white. You walk farther and find slightly nicer houses. Still a bit drab compared to your flat but thinking that way makes you seem stuck up. You see a girl about 10 sitting in the steps of her flat watching a video on her iPod. She looks up as you go by.

"Oh my goodness!! It's (Insertyoutubename)!"

You smile and she comes up to you.

"Can I have a hug?" She asks.

"Of course!" You reply

You crouch down and hug her. She flips to the camera on her iPod and takes a selfie with you.

"I can't believe it's actually you!"

"Well it is! What's your name?"

"Melanie."

"Well Melanie want to play a game of tag?"

She hops up and down saying yes.

You tap her shoulder and yell:

"Tag you're it!"

Melanie screams in laughter and you burst out running. You slow down a bit so she has a chance of catching you. You feel a little tap on your back when she catches you.

"Tag!!"

You and Melanie play for about half an hour and then her mum calls her into the house. She gives you one last hug and heads in. That's when you decide to head back to your flat. You pull out your phone and ring Aidan. As the phone is ringing you think how much more fun it would have been with Dan. Aidan finally picks up after the 5th ring.

"Where the hell did you go?"

"Just to the more poor area of London and played with some kids and met a fan."

"You're a bit mad but alright."

"Can you get a cab to pick me up?"

"Sure."

You hang up and wait around for a while until the cab can get here. You check your channel. 3,001,319 subscribers. Wow. Who knew this would happen?

The cab get to you and On your ride home you find yourself getting stuck between choosing Aidan and Dan. Then you get home and shake them away. Aidan is waiting and he hugs you as soon as you walk in the door. The warm embrace of his toned arms make you feel at home. There are worse things you could do then leave Dan.