There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 25: Northern Downpour

  A/N Kay trigger warning for this chapter and probably for the next few ones...yeah it's gonna get pretty sad.
You walk home from the bar. The regrets were almost unbearable. You're going to have to tell Dan what you did. It felt so good though. Aidan's body was incredible. His abs. His arms. His back. His... Never mind. You make it to the front door of your flat and you prepare for the downpour.

You open the flat door and Dan is standing there waiting.

"Where the hell..." He stops mid sentence and you see he is looking at your neck.

Hickeys.

You see tears form in Dan's eyes. Betrayal was heavy in his eyes. For some reason you didn't feel any worse than you did before.

"Just tell me who it was." He demanded softly.

Bile rose in your throat.

"Aidan..." You whisper.

The tears were streaming out of Dan's eyes. He just moved pas you and leaves. You collapse onto the ground and starts screaming and crying like a 2 year old. You tear off our dress and just lay there in your undergarments. You rub the makeup off your face and cry. Dan's gone now. You couldn't blame him. You look down at you body and see the hickeys everywhere.

The tears wouldn't stop falling out. You run up to your bedroom and the clock reads 2:12. You rummage around your drawers and find the thing you haven't used for years.

Your blade.

You hold it above your arm and thrust it down into your skin. It leaves a large slash a roast your left wrist. No emotion when you do it. You feel calmer when the blood pours out of the gash.

This is your punishment for what you did.

You throw the blade back in the drawer. You place your hand on the cut and run to the bathroom. Blood was spewing out the cut. You run some water over it. The stinging was unbearable. You let out a scream. The cut was sending a blazing pain up your arm. You scream louder. You hear a pounding around and a knock at the door.

"(Y/N)? What's wrong!?" (Y/F/N) shouts from the other side of the door.

The pain gets worse and you can't say a thing.

She starts kicking the door and soon it flys open. That's when you collapse to the ground