There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 49: Glazed eyes and empty hearts.

  Dan insisted on helping you pack but you needed some time to yourself. He left you alone for the rest of the day. That's when you went to your room to pack for VidCon. As you were packing your mind kind of wandered. Then you realised, where the hell is (Y/F/N)? She didn't call you when you ran away when Phil and Dan did.

You stopped packing and pulled your mobile out. You quickly wine to dial her. To ring after ring but eventually she answered.

"Hello?" She said.

"(Y/F/N) where have you been? You haven't been home or answering anyone."

"I'm fine. I've been out on a week tour of London. Even though we live here I still didn't know where a lot of things are."

"Oh all right. Are you going with Phil to VidCon?"

"I decided not to. I don't have a channel so I'd be dragging him down."

"Are you two dating?"

"No, he fancies someone else."

"All right. I leave tomorrow so you'll have the flat to yourself okay? Be safe."

"Bye (Y/N)!"

"Bye (Y/F/N)"

You hung up. (Y/F/N) really likes Phil. They even kissed. Who does he like? After you finish packing you'll have him come over so you can find out.

Packing for this was very difficult. You didn't know exactly you were doing. It was in America. You're going back to your original country which is fucking amazing. It's in Miami. You get to meet your subscribers and Dan mentioned he had a huge surprise for you. That got you very excited. He said being at least two rather formal outfits and a bunch of casual ones for stage skits and meet and greets.

You finished about an hour later and then you called Phil to come over. He seemed unsure to but it is out of no where. About 10 minutes later you heard a knock on your flat door.

"It's open!!" You shout as you run down the stairs.

Phil walked in looking upset. He looked paler than he normally was and his eyes looked red from crying.

"Oh my God Phil what's wrong!?"

He sits down on your couch and keeps his head down. You've never seen Phil like this before.

"Dan flipped out on me for no reason. He locked himself in his room and won't stop freaking out. Don't go over though. He would yell at you too."

Phil's words struck something inside of you. That feeling of dread spread though your body. You don't want to ask him the question but you have to.

"Phil I know you're upset but I have a question. It will take your mind off of Dan for now."

"Sure ask away."

"(Y/F/N) said you fancy someone. Who is it?"

Phil looks up quickly. His eyes widened.

"Oh it's no one don't worry about it."

"Phil. It's not (Y/F/N) I can tell you that. You rejected her so who is it?"

"Promise you won't say a word to ANYONE?" He asks.

"Of course."

"Dan."

World caved in and the truth came out. You didn't know what to do. All your phan stalking for years is partially real. Obviously Dan doesn't like Phil but oh my llama.

"Holy shit." You whispered.

"Please don't tel him (Y/N). Imagine if the phandom found out. Dan would never speak to me. I'd lose my best friend."

"I won't say a thing. It's just...phan is like half real."

"Haha I know."

Phil lays down on your couch and stares away.

"Since I met him I loved him."

"I'm sorry I stole your man Phil."

"It's fine. He's not gay. Or even bi. Just pack in 2009 I actually thought he was but when male fans started hitting. On him he flipped out. He's definitely not gay."

"I'm sorry Philly."

"It's all right. Can I stay here until he calms down?"

"Sure! You're all packed though right?"

"Yeah."

You nod and go into the he kitchen. Phil likes Dan. This whole trip will be plagued by the thought of Phil likening Dan. You get Phil a glass of water and place it on the table I front of him. He looks like a heartbroken teenager.

Phil told you not to go check on Dan but you couldn't help it.

"I'll be back Phil!" You say.

He doesn't reply but you head out and over to Dan's flat. As soon as you open the door you hear Dan upstairs. You sprinted up the stairs and straight to Dan's room. His sobs rattled your body.

"Dan?" You whisper slightly opening the door.
 
You open it completely and see Dan curled up on the side of his bed. His body shook as he sobbed. You didn't know what to think. Then you went over and sat next to him.

"Dan what's wrong?"

"I--*sob* can't stop *sob* panicking."

You sit him upright and rub circles on back. With your other hand you move his fringe out of his face. You use the sleeve of your shirt to wipe his tears away.

"Why were you panicking?"

"I keep thinking about VidCon. It normally doesn't scare me but I have so many fans now. Then add Phil's and yours to it. That's well over  10,000,000 fans. More than I'm used to."

You hug Dan and say "You have nothing to worry about. You will be amazing. I promise."