There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 63: Trouble (con't)

  The days after Dan's breakdown got worse. He didn't leave his room. He wouldn't eat and wouldn't sleep. Dan spent his days crying and starring into space. You and Phil stayed with him along the way.

"Why do they have to go after my family?" Dan asked  out of no where.

He was laying with his head in your lap and you were stroking his hair. Dan hasn't said a word in a couple of days.

"I don't know Dan, I haven't had that issue but I'm sure I will." 

He says nothing and continues to lay there and cry, leaving wet spots on your jeans. Phil comes by and he has a plate of pancakes for you and Dan. You take the plate and happy eat them. Dan just looks at it.

"Dan you have to eat. You haven't eaten in a week." You say.

You're actually worried about his health both mentally and physically. Dan reaches over and takes a pancake and takes a bite. As you're eating you're trying to think of how to get him on his feet again.

You place the plate of pancakes down on his bedside table. Dan looks startled as you move. You stand up and start to pull Dan off the bed.

"What the fuck!?" Dan yells as his bum hits the floor.

"Get up. You're not letting them get to you like this. You have to be the one to help protect your family."

He looks up at you from the floor. His face is so pale. The bags under his eyes are more prominent than you've ever seen them.

"It's the real wedding for 2022."

You turn and see Phil in the corner looking slightly amused.

"It's not my wedding. It's yours. You're not going to let a bunch of fan girls ruin it. They will understand that it's (Y/N) and not me."

Dan stands up. He looks at you then looks at Phil. He goes back and forth with his eyes very slowly. Then he stops at Phil.

"Phil? Come over here."

Phil had an "oh shit" face plastered on. He slowly crept over to his best friend. Once he was face to face with Him Dan pulled Phil into a hug. You watched in happiness because deep down, you still shipped Phan.

Dan released Phil from the hug and then Dan came to you. He looked down at you with a look of playful annoyance. You noticed they still looked a bit dull.

"You, are not allowed to ever pull me out of bed again." He says.

You smile at him and tried to run away. Phil blocks the exit and Dan crept up behind you. You spy around but Dan picked you up and and threw you over his shoulder. Phil laughed and said,

"I can take her for the day so you can sleep."

"That sounds good." Dan replies.

"Hey!! I'm not a four year old." You shout from dans shoulder.

"Yeah but you and Dan will have one soon." Phil says.

Dan puts you down and gives you a kiss and heads back to your room. You follow Phil to his room and flop onto his bed.

"What's up Philly? Why'd you volunteer to take me?"

Phil looks at you for a second and then states,

"You know even after goofing around, it's going to take him a while to recover right?"

There was sorrow in his voice.

"When he hugged me I could feel every bone in his body."

Your heart flips at that. He's really that bad? What are you going to do!? He can't be depressed at his wedding. You won't let him.

"Well what can I do!?" You say.

"You have to get him out of the house. Make him interact with fans again. The fans who aren't over shipping us. There are some good fans left." Phil says.

He gets up and goes into his closet. He pulls out a hoodie that's obviously dans. He looks at you as he puts it on.

"Hey friends share clothing."

You laugh so hard you fall off his bed. James runs into the room and hops on Phil's bed. You get up and pet your doggo.

"I can't believe he got me this." You say hugging the puppy.

"The landlord won't either." Phil jokes.

The rest of your day was spent with Phil. Unlike most youtubers he was the same person you see in the videos. You two had meowing competitions, drawing challenges and a pillow fight. You said goodnight to Phil and went back to your room. Dan was asleep and the room was completely dark. You change into pjs and crawl into bed next to him.

His breathing was steady and calming. When you curled up next to him you could feel that Phil was right. He's gotten skinny. He looked so worn out. It's scary what people's comments can do to someone.

You decide to borrow Dans laptop and check or his Twitter and Instagram. You scrolled through his Twitter mentions. Most of them here harmless but some were exactly what made him so upset. You decided to @ back all of them. That should shut them up. You don't bother with Instagram. they were alms or completely harmless. You shut down his laptop but when you turned over Dan was wide awake.

"What were you doing?"

"Nothing just browsing."

"Mhm. Now come here I want cuddles."

You lean into his touch and bury your face in the crook of his neck. He held you like a toddler would hold a teddy. You wrap one leg around him so you can be as close as possible.

"I love you more than anything" you say softly.

"I love you more than I love pancakes." Dan says.

You push his fringe out of his face you kinda liked how long it's gotten But it was curly. You press a kiss to his forehead. He kisses your cheek and asks,

"How's Phil doing?"

"He's fine. He's back on his social media now."

"All right good."

You press kisses all around his face. He scrunched his nose up everyone you kiss it.

"We're going out tomorrow. We're going to go walk around London. You need to meet some fans and buy yourself something."

"Do I have to." He says in a whiny tone.

"Yes love."

"Fine."

You and Dan fall into a blissful sleep after that. The two of you stay pressed together as close as you could possibly get.