There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chaoter 98: Five years Later.

Around 10:30pm you got the call. Nobody could have predicted it. The ring from your phone cut through the entire silence of your room.

"Hello?"

"Hi." You reply.

"Is this (Y/N) (Y/L/N)"

"Well that was my name I'm married now. It's (Y/N) Howell."

"Oh my apologises. I'm calling to inform you that both your parents have passed away in a automobile accident."

Your blood hasn't run this cold since Aidan died all those years ago. They are dead? What? You haven't seen them in 8 years.

"Oh My God."

"Yes in their wills they requested for cremation. There will be no funeral."

"O-okay."

"I'm extremely sorry for your loss."

"Thank you."

You hang up and look at Dan. There's a look in your eyes you couldn't explain.

"They're dead. My parents. They're dead."

"Oh my God...(Y/N) I'm so sorry."

You just nod in response. First Aidan, then (Y/F/N),now your fucking parents. Who else is the universe going to take? Your children? Your fucking husband? The universe had already tried taking him. It tried taking Phil too. Dan arms slip around you. A part of you wanted him to let go. But right now you just laid down next to him. There were no tears. You were too upset for tears.

Another year passed since that day. You try to keep yourself busy by entertaining YouTube. It was working. You Dan and Phil hit 40,000,000 subscribers. Just like (Y/F/N) wanted you to. It felt incredible. Kimberly started her own channel too. She was very close to one million already. It seemed like life was all right for once. Everyone was happy.

Every now and then you think about Phil's memory gap. Why only 2009? The doctors couldn't ever figure it out. That's why they think it could be self inflicted. Phil repressed that year so far that he can't ever remember it again. It was for the best. For both him and Dan.

"Mum?"

You were pulled out of your thoughts by Kimberly poking you.

"Yeah?"

"Can you tell me what happened to Phil all those years ago?"

"I guess. He tried to kill himself because he thought he wasn't good enough. Phil didn't think he would go anywhere in life. He also had a "fuckbuddies" relationship with Dan in 2009 but it backfired because he fell in love with Dan. I didn't know about it when I got married to Dan. The agonising love and guilt about me not knowing was too much. But now he doesn't even remember that year so it's all right now."

"Holy shit."

"Yeah."

"It's been too quiet for too long mum. This family never gets breaks like this."

"True. But maybe it's all right now. I only need the people in this house anyway."

"What about Grandma and Grandpa?"

"They died. A year ago from Today actually. Car accident"

"What?"

"Yeah. They're gone."

"Mum I'm so sorry."

"It's all right."

You both stay silent. For once the quiet was all right. You had everything you ever wanted now.