There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 26: Darkness

A/N The trigger warning is still up guys! Also the language is a bit strong in this chapter. You can skip this one without missing much from the story.
You remain in darkness for a long time. This leaves you some time with your thoughts without pulling out the blade again.

Dan is gone.

You cheated on him with your incredibly sexy ex.

You pulled out you're blade for the first time in forever.

Now you're passed out and probably won't remember any of this when you wake up.

You won't remember!!! (Y/F/N) better not ruin that. Wait. You thought people weren't aware when they pass out. Then what the hell is wrong!? Fuck. Is this a coma or something?

You hear muffled voices and other sounds around you but you can't tell what they are. Damn. How much blood did you lose? Couldn't be that much could it? Alright it must be bad because your thought process is so fucked right now.

Then another thought crossed your mind. Not a great one either.

You didn't realise how much you enjoyed having sex with Aidan. You actually think t could be better than when you had it with Dan.

Oh great. You're becoming sex addicted. Just fucking wonderful.

Wow my language if filled with profanities. Just what you need.

Fuck You're bored with my stupid  thoughts.  You want out of here. What the fuck is wrong with you? Are you dead? Is this what it's life to be dead!!? If it is you hate it. You know hay you can't be dead. You heard voices around you. Dead people don't hear right?

You resize how annoying it is to have thought like this. But then again it's kinda helpful. Damn (Y/N) why did you cut yourself again. you know it was the only thing that would help you at the time. You needed a blade in your skin again. Punishment.

You start to get really bored. And hungry. Turns out you can't eat when you're floating around in your thoughts. You really want Aidan again. You're practically done with Dan right now. Then a wave of emotion smacks you in the..well nit really face. More like it slapped you in the thoughts.

Really big warning for the things mentioned up top

You cheated on Dan. How could you. He was the only one who did leave after you told him EVERYTHING. Then out of nowhere you get drunk and fuck your douchebag excuse of an ex. He was an actual twat and you still fucked him. What the hell!? Why did you do that to Dan!? He never did anything wrong. But you're still craving Aidan. You need to go drink some bleach or something. Just go fucking kill yourself you worthless slut. Aidan wanted you for the fucking sex like he did before. He didn't actually miss you. He wanted down one to shove his dick into. You could have gave him what he wanted years ago but you needed to stay a virgin and end up fucking Dan instead.

You just need to kill yourself. Too bad you aren't dead. The world will appreciate itself a bit more if you (Y/N) (Y/L/N) was off the planet. You're not perfect enough to be on this earth. Too bad you didn't cut yourself and deeper. Maybe you could be dead. That's what everyone needs.