There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Chapter 88: 6 Months Later

  All has been amazing. The baby was doing very well. In today you were going to find out the gender. Yes it's very late but you and Dan being major procrastinators you been putting it off.

"Hey!" She says.

"Have you got any ideas for the party?"

"Yes I got a few. Would you like it to be a baby shower too?"

"Haha am I not supposed to know about them though?"

"Yes but who cares?"

"Okay. Do you want to come to the doctor to find out the gender?"

"Would you mind?"

"I want my best friend to be there."

"Okay I'll come."

"Yay good."

Zoe P.O.V
I'm happy I get to plan another party. It keeps me busy. Sometimes my mind dwells on Alfie. I keep offering to plan stuff for (Y/N) to keep me busy and we both gain form it. I hope she doesn't feel like she's using me.

Lola runs into the room chasing Nala. She's the perfect little girl. Ever since Lousie had Darcy I wanted a child. Alfie did too but we could never make it happen. Now he's gone and I have to accept it. Repress it.

I know I can't replace (Y/F/N). There was a bond between those two that you couldn't ever have. (Y/N) is my best friend and she says I'm hers but deep down I know I can't be (Y/F/N). (Y/N) told me everything about her and now I try to be a bit like her. (Y/N) says she tries not to dwell on her. She moved on so quickly. Too quickly. But that's what (Y/F/N) wanted. (Y/N) told me about the flash drive and let me see the video. So I know for sure that's what she wanted. I kind of want to relate her but I can't. I know I can't.

  I pull out my binders and start to plan this party. I wanted it to be good. It's a very important day in (Y/N)'s life and this is my only escape form thoughts of Alfie. I only have an hour until (Y/N) picks me up. I have to get to work.

*back to your pov*

You start getting ready for the doctors. When you look in he mirrors you couldn't help but smile. Your hands go right to the bump on your stomach. It was rather large now. 8 months. Zoe mentioned something maternity pictures. Every day Dan kisses your stomach. Dan is the best father anyone could ever ask for. He loves Kimberly so much and you know he will love this baby as much as he loves Kim.

"Hey babe are you almost ready?" Dan says walking into the room pulling you from your thoughts.

"Yeah almost. Just thinking. "

"You know how dangerous that is." He jokes kissing your cheek.

"Obviously."

Then you start to get a really bad contraction. But it wasn't as bad as when you get your water break.

"Dan..."

"Are you all right?"

"No."

"What's wrong?"

"My water just broke."

"You're kidding."

"I wish I was."

"Lay down. Now. I'll call an ambulance."

"Call Zoe. And get Phil."

"All right."

You were in levels of pain that couldn't be put in words. You were worries too. It was a month early. It was almost grown but still. You don't even know if it was a girl or boy. Most of the stuff you bought were unisex. Even the crib and clothing. You wanted your baby to be whatever it wanted. Phil comes running in with bed head and glasses. His Cookie Monster pjs were rolled up on one leg. He just woke up.

"Your in Labour."

"Yep think so." You say sarcastically.

"Do you need anything?"

"Did Dan cal Zoe?"

"No. He went for the ambulance first."

"Call."

He takes your phone.

Zoe pov

My phone started ringing. It was probably (Y/N) saying she was coming to get me. I grab it and answer.

"Hey (Y/N)"

"It's not (Y/N)"

It was actually Phil. Was something wrong?"

"Hi Phil what going on?"

"(Y/N) is in labour."

Holy shit.

"I'm coming now."

I hang up and grab my keys and wallet and my child. I can't just leave her here.

"Hi Lola were gonna go for a ride all right?"

"Hehe okay!"

She laughs as I strap her into the seat. I dive into the drivers side and start the engine. I hear an ambulance that I presume was going to their house. I headed the normal route and sure enough it was at their flat.

"Mommy why is there an ambulance?"

"Don't worry sweetie."

They roll out a gurney and go in for my best friend. Its coming out too soon. It's a month early and if this baby dies on her she couldn't live with herself. After a few seconds they come out with (Y/N) and Dan sees my car. He runs to the window.

"Come in the ambulance. Phil has Kimberly and can take Lola."

Phil comes and takes Lola and we both climb in the ambulance. Everything was happening so fast. Dan looked a new level of terrified. I take one of (Y/N)s hand and Dan takes the other.

"I am so fucking scared." (y/N) whispers.

"It's going to be all right." I say.

"Don't worry. I'm scared too."

"Baby Howell will be just fine." I say but even I don't know if that's true.