Your subscriber number grew throughout the week. But the number on the scale shrunk. You haven't been eating normally. So far nobody noticed. You can't bring yourself to eat a full meal. 115 went to 105 that week. The subscriber number went from 0 to 450,000.
You stand in front of the mirror completely naked. The shower is running behind you but you ignore it. You look into your own eyes, completely disgusted. You hate the way you're built. Small shoulders, big ribs, minimal waist, small hips and largish thighs. You absolutely hate it. You look away and get in the shower. You sit on the bottom of the tub and let the water run down your face.
The pain will never go. You wish you realised that.
You wash your hair and shave our legs and underarms. You dry off and get dressed. You had to tie your pyjama bottoms really tight. Your jumper was baggy now too. You head out to your bedroom and lay on your bed. You decide to let it all in.
You have 450,000 subscribers.
You're falling back into your old ways.
You had sex with Dan.
You're becoming depressed again.
Why are you like this?
You decide to stop letting reality in and go downstairs to your kitchen. You don't go for food you go for the list of things that you and (Y/F/N) need to do. You snatch the list.
Get cleaning supplies
Get rugs for downstairs
Get decorations for downstairs
Get a storage unit for (Y/F/N)
You want to go out but you're in pyjamas.
"(Y/N)? Whatcha doing?" Olivia asks coming around the corner.
"Just looking at what I eventually have to do."
"Maybe we can go out later on." Olivia suggests.
"Yeah I'd rather wait for (Y/F/N)"
"Kay. You know (Y/N) you're starting to get an accent."
You smile at that. You always wanted a British accent. Now you're starting to get one naturally. Sweet!
"You want to come over and meet Dan and Phill?"
"Omg are you serious!?"
"Uh yeah!" You smile.
You sent a text to Dan.
Dan❤️
Hey do you mind if I come over? I have a dreams with me.
From Dan❤️
Yes of course!! I like meeting people!
You run upstairs and change your jumper and put on a tee shirt and a pair of jeans. You Swan dive to your vanity and put some powder and mascara on. Then you run downstairs as you tie your hair into a bun.
"Let's go over now Olivia!"
She jumps up and down and screeches.
"Alright I'm good now. I won't fangirls when I'm there." She states.
She flattens her platinum blonde hair and smooths her dress.
"Kay lets go." You say.
You two leave your flat and go next door to Dan and Phill's flat. You nick on the door and Phil opens it up and let's you in.
"We have a key for you now, (Y/N)!" Phil says holding out a white key with the cat whiskers on it.
"Thanks Philly!" You say giving him a hug. "I'd like you to meet my friend, Olivia!" You say shoving her forward.
Olivia smiles and holds out her hand but Phil pulls her into a hug. She laughs and hugs him back.
"I'm such a huge fan!" She says.
"It's so nice to meet you!" Phil replies.
Dan comes downstairs with hobbit hair and a totoro shirt on. He pulls you into a quick kiss and hug. You were amazed at how natural it was.
"How did you lose so much weight?" Dan asked letting go of you and placing his hands on your waist.
You shrink away and say:
"Go meet Olivia. She's the friend I mentioned." You say quickly changing the subject.
He rolls his eyes and goes to meet her, instantly changing his stance from concerned and firm to happy and grateful in a matter of seconds. Olivia and the duo instantly hit it off. She kept her word and didn't fangirl all over the place. She decided to go back to your flat after getting autographs and a selfie with rah and then together.
After Olivia was gone you and Dan will have the talk you were dreading while Olivia met them. There's no way around it.
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There Are Worse Things I Could Do
Fanfiction(DanXReader) You and your best friend are moving to London and you two end up getting a lot more than you thought.
