Love, Music, And Heartbreak.

Pills.

I woke up and automatically wished I didn't.  Why did I alwayd have to end up in a terrible position where it seems dying is the only way to solve? Bret had his arms wrapped around me and I suddenly had flashbacks about when I was kidnapped. I jumped off of the bed and huddled myself into a corner. I was crying and pushing myself against the wall. Bret sat up terrified. He tried to approach me but I yelled at him and called him Trey  and  to get away from me. He called Jace who rushed over and was there within minutes.

"Scar. Hunnie its ok its me Jace. You're ok," I let him hug me to him. I heard quiet cries from Bret but mine overpowered his. I let all of it go. All the brave smiles. All the flashbacks. All the depressing moments. They all came out in sobs and screams. Soon I exhausted myself and Jace picked me up from the floor and laid me on the bed as I slept again.

Again I had the same dream of the little girl. My chest was tightened like my heart was actually breaking. But then I woke up. I wasn't in my room anymore. But rather a cell block looking room. I was in a white gown.
Hospital?  No. Its too secure. I walked up to the door and I saw Jace. He had tears in his eyes and so did Bret who came up behind him.

"Scar. We contacted your therapist. She said that you need to be in a psych hospital for a few weeks....losing the baby triggered something. You thought Bret was Trey."

"Let me out!" I screamed.

"Baby, Im so sorry...You need this. You've too strong for too long. They are gonna help you," he kissed two of his fingers and reached through the window bars and touched my forehead. I started crying.  The love of my life thinks I'm crazy. Am i?

They left as I screamed for them to stay. Mrs Rines then appeared. She opened the door and let herself in. She motioned me to sit and so I did. She sat across from me and sighed.

"Scarlet. You went through a mental breakdown this morning. But you just have to stay here for 2 weeks or until we feel you have improved. Tomorrow we will start. Eventually i will bring in a series of people. Alyssa, Kennedy from your past. Then Jace,Cassie and Shade and Tristan, and Cody for you present. Then Bret for past, present, and future."  I nodded while quietly crying.

"Your friends want you healed and this is your only option. You will get medicine three times a day here and a daily session with me. Eventually you will be able to walk around the facility."

"O-ok," I replied shaking violently. She stood to her feet and walked out the door.
"Oh and you will be able to write letters and have phone calls." I nodded and I brought my knees to my chest and placed my head ontop of them. My band. I let them down. We are supposed to be recording.Bret. i let him down by doing this. I couldn't even protect our child....
I'm not fit to ever be a parent. The wedding...it will be severely pushed back probably. Unless they let me plan. Suddenly there was a bell ringing. Then a tray was placed inside my room by a woman wearing all black. The tray contained food and my pills. I slowly stood and walked to the Tray. I picked up the pills and rattled them around in my hand. If I want to get better then I have to take these and cooperate with the doctors. If i want my band. If i want Bret. I do want Bret. Then suddenly i three the pills into my mouth and swallowed them with the glass of water. Then as a reward Mrs.Rines slid a piece of paper and rubber pencil through the door.

"Thank you." I said as she walked away. After I ate a little bit I started to write.

Dear Bret,

I am sorry for what happened. They are right. I had a mental breakdown. I had a flashback. Again. Im so sorry about our child. I wish I never got into that fight. I would understand if you no longer wanted to marry me. I get it. I am gonna get better. I will be better when you see me next.  I will try to write these daily. So you don't worry about me. If you still want to marry me then Ill see if i can get some planning done in here. Tell the band Im so sorry. I love you.

Love,
Scar x

I folded the letter and out in the window of the bars so Mrs.Rines could read it and deliver it. I ate some more of my food and I sighed as I looked around the white room. Well I guess this is home for awhile. Home sweet home.....

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