Love, Music, And Heartbreak.

Going Home

I woke up. I had the strangest dream...Bret came to visit me at like 2 in the morning. Snap out of it Scar you practically told him to go fuck himself.... I realized that I was on Cody's chest and our legs were entangled like me and Bret used to do. Although I bet Rayna is better at everything than what I did. Sex,makeup,cuddling,showering,kissing. Everything. I came in second compared to her.

I sighed and Cody kissed my head as he awoke. I faked smiled up at him and he frowned.
"What's wrong love?"

"I'm fine."

"No."

"Bad dream..."

He nuzzle my head and held me close. Soon Jace came in with a wheelchair. He discharged me!!! Thank god! I slowly got up making sure not to open or rebreak anything. I sat in the chair and and Jace wheeled me out to the parking lot where a few taxies waited for my band,cody,alyssa,Alyssa and Bret. Jace put me in a cab with him,Cody, and Crystal.

I was silent the entire way there. Still as a piece of wood too. When we got home Jace was gonna get my stuff from Bret's attic and someone is taking me to buy a new phone. I also need to call the record label to prove I am in fact alive and they can fire that bitch now. I have a huge list of what to do actually. Stay away from Bret's house far as possible. Cody offered to move into the band house for a few days to help me out.

I of course said he didn't have to that'd I be fine with my band but he insisted. I guess Cody will be staying over. I hope he knows Sex is off the list. I don't wanna ever have Sex until I'm ready...being raped numerous times can change you. Plus I hurt everywhere.

We arrived at the airport and we boarded the plane and it took off. I sat next to Cody and Jace. No matter what I could lay on them to sleep on. Cody was very open to that. He's starting up again isn't he...

He's starting to like me again. Crap. I'm just gonna disappoint him...I don't wanna fall in love with anyone right now. I am in love. But he loves someone else...and she's better for him.

I kept waking in and out of sleep and heard we were just over Kentucky. Not too far to go. I got up because I had to go to the restroom. Cassie asked if I wanted her to wait by the bathroom door and I said no.

I hate that they are treating me like a porcelain doll.Im not fragile. Just beaten. I locked the door and just looked at myself in the mirror. Once again I hated everything I saw. It was made worse by Trey and Sierra....

I came out after my business to find Bret standing outside the door. I faked smiled at him and tried to push past him to get back to my seat. Fail. He lightly grabbed my hand and dragged me into the back where the stewardess ready the cart.

"I'm so sorry...." He said quietly.

"Don't be. You're in love and happy."

"I thought I was happy...." He said.

"Yeah yeah I get it I made your life a hell when it turned out I was alive. So sorry to disappoint. " I tried pushing through again but failed.

"Don't you get that I'm still madly in love with you!!!!??? I was torn when I thought you were dead and Rayna was there. Your friends reminded me of you so I cut those ties. I had to forget you! Or I would have been miserable."

"I fucking clearly get it Bret!! Its just hard to think I'll ever get you back compared to her!!! She is so much better than me. She probably does everything better too."

"She will never top you. Your cuddles are better,hugs,kisses,moans,screams,cries,looks. Everything." He caressed my cheek and leaned in but the stewardess came in and we leaped apart. I walked back to my seat as I silently shook with anxiety.

I love him. I miss him. Everything about him. I sighed and laid on Cody as I fell back asleep.

*******Dream********
Bret was standing in the middle of a dark black room. Spotlight on him. He had a singled rose in his hands. I looked down at myself and saw myself in a black elegant dress with lace gloves and black high heels. I walked towards him and he kneeled down and kissed my hand and I smiled. He handed me the beautiful rose and he held my free hand.

"Scar. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I can't stand just being your boyfriend any longer. Your heart belongs to me and I yours. You changed my life and made everything better and I will forever do the same for you."

"Scarlet Monroe Massacre will you please do me the honor and marry me?" My mouth dropped and covered my mouth with my hand as he pulled the box out.

"Yes! Fuck yes!!!!" He stood up and I jumped in his arms.

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Too bad that was a dream. I thought as I was shook awake.

Damn..

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