Love, Music, And Heartbreak.

Blacked Out Days

Today was Bret's birthday. He is turning 20. I woke up beside him and smiled. He silently snored and his chest rose and fell slowly. I smiled and got up and went downstairs.

I got things out to make pancakes and bacon. I cooked them and when I was done I put the plate of pancakes and bacon on a tray and carried it up to our room.

I put it on the night stand and I sat on the edge of the bed. Bret soon woke up and I straddled him and he smiled at me. I leaned down and kissed him. He then started to kiss me more.I pulled away and got off of him . I replaced where I was with the tray. He smiled and sat up in his spot.

"Happy Birthday love."

"Thank You Scar." He said eyeing the food.

He started to eat and I got back under the covers and I watched Bret. I've got his whole bday planned out. I have since last week. He finished and put the tray down. He pulled me onto of him again and he smiled to me. I smiled at him and he pulled me in for a kiss. Then he surprisingly pulled away.

"Did you eat anything?" I kept silent. He's been getting onto me because I haven't been eating.

"Alright come on." Bret said and dragged ne outta bed.

"Bret where are we going?" I groaned.

"You are going to eat because I hate seeing you like this."

"But I'm always like this around this time of year ask Jace!"

"Just come on." He dragged me down the stairs abd he sat me at the kitchen table.

He then went to the cupboard and grabbed a bowl. He got cereal and milk and poured it into the bowl and put a spoon in it and sat it in front of me.

I sighed and picked the spoon up and slowly ate. He made me finish the whole fucking bowl. Soon I ended up running to the bathroom and puking my guts out into the toilet.

Bret held my hair up as I puked and I knew I had disappointed him. On his birthday.....

I sat to the side when i was done and he pulled me into his lap and craddled me.

"I'm sorry..." I said.

"I know you weren't like this around me back then what happened?"

"I...I was a messed up person Bret when you left i was a mess. I felt i was too fat and starved myself for very long time. I had to go to the hospital it was so bad." I said.

"I'm sorry i caused you that much.pain." He said.

"Its fine. I can eat some not much though."

"So what's the plan for today?"

"Well me and you are going out to eat and then coming home for dessert ." I said and clung to his chest.

He smiled and lifted me up bridal style. He kissed me and sat me on our bed. I started to get ready and everything and I had tight leggings on and a shredded top i liked.

Bret was still getting ready when i was done so I texted everyone in a group chat.

Bret is finishing up getting ready Ill text you all when we leave.

Tyler:k

Jace:Ready for your call

JC:alright

Crystal: Ready to go!

Shade:Ok :p

Alex: Lets do this!!!!!

The Relapse boys were coming and my band was coming. I also got Bret's Dad to come. I didn't trt to get ahold of his mom or his half sister Jade. It would only make him upset.

Andy couldn't come cause he was back out on tour. Bret finally came out and we went downstairs. He pulled me close to him once we were about to go out the door . He looked into my eyes and he kissed me. I smiled and when he pulled away he got his phone out and he took a picture of us both and he posted it to all the social media he had.

I flipped my phone out and texted the group chat.

Go go go!!!!

i got a bunch of replies but I didnt look at them cause i was driving to the restaurant since Bret didn't know where it was.

We arrived there and we got out if the car and we went in. It was an Italian place. We sat down at our table and we sat across from eachother. I ordered a small salad that I hope I can pull off. Bret ordered a small thing of spaghetti . We talked about how i have to go into the studio next week and hiw I'm sort of nervous even though its just an ep. I then rubbed my foot against his leg under the table just to see what would happen and he shivered under my touch and I giggled. The food came out and when he started eating I did it again and he started to eat faster. I slowly ate my salad because i had to borrow the guys time to set up.

Once we finished Bret paid the bill after i said for him not to. I texted the group we were leaving the restaurant. They needed some more time though.

I thought of what I could do and

knew it right away. I drove to this little spot i remembered. Its where me and Bret first met. It was this little woody area.

I stopped the car when we were there and I led him to the spot.

"Remember this place?" I asked.

"Of course. I found you crying right here at this tree the summer before highschool."

"I was crying because my Dad had tried to rape me but I ran out the door."

"And when i found you here i took you to my house and you spent the night there." He said.

"Yeah. When I found you i thought you were my savior." I said.

"And I was right." I finished. Bret turned me to him and he held me close to his body. His eyes searched mine and he kissed me deeply.

"Ill always be their to save you." He said and kissed me again.

"Come on lets head back home." He said again and he drove. I texted the group.

On our way!!!!

Jace:We're ready

Alex:Come on this whiskey is teasing me!!!

I laughed and locked my phone. We made it home and Bret thought he and me were going to do something ....he's wrong haha. He opened the door and...."Surprise!!!!!" Everyone yelled.

Bret was soo surprised. He hugged me and then everyone else. Bret brought me over to meet his Dad even though I already have. We shook hands and said our hi's and byes.

I went to the stereo and plugged my phone in and we partied until we couldn't. We got soooo fucking drunk. Bullet was scared for her life and ran into the bathroom and hid in the tub.

Bret and I were very drunk. But not so drunk that we can't remember anything. Bret led me upstairs and into our room. He closed the door and then pushed me up against the door. He wrapped my legs around him and he kissed me drunkenly. I kissed him back and we started to.make out. I pressed my hips into him and he started to growl. I smiled and bit at his Spider bites and that sent him over. He threw me on the bed and climbed onto of me and Ill let you guess what all happened next. ;)

The next morning I woke up next to Bret naked and so was he. My head was pounding. I got up and put on Brets shirt and some basketball pants I found.

I went downstairs and I saw everyone passed out on the floor. Jace had a bowl on his head. I laughed and went for some aspein and coffee.

Oh what a day.

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There's a surprise coming hehe

Love you guys!!!!!

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