Love, Music, And Heartbreak.

Bloody Love

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuckity Fuck Fuck!!!!

"What do you mean I didn't sleep with Bret!" I whispered yet screamed back. She pulled me outside and I was dragged out. I lit a cigarette and smoked.

"Don't lie to me Scar I can tell when someone just got their fucking brains fucked out by a guy!" Crystal screamed.

"Alright fine! Jesus! I did sleep with him! Happy!"

"You know Jace is going to kill you right and him definitely ."

"Which is why I don't plan on telling him."

"So you two are going to secretly go out and even fuck each other without telling your own band?"

"I....i just don't wanna upset anyone. Tristan would hate me forever as would Shade and Jace and Alyssa and Kennedy!"

"Well why did you do it!?!?"

"Because I'm still in fucking love with him!!!!!" I screamed at her getting very pissed off.

I stomped out my cigarette and opened the door and ignored everyone and went to my room.

I went into the bathroom and locked and shut the door. I sat on the floor and started to cry. The one time I think Ill have no regrets with him someone turns it into a regret. I searched my medicine bag and found the bottle I had. It didn't have pills in them no it had something better. My only razor. I sighed.

I promised Andy not to but...but ..right now I need relief...

I got the razor out of the pill bottle and drew it against my arm. I made three cuts on my thighs and three on my wrist. I sat there and cried. God I'm so fucking weak and pathetic.

"Scar you in there?" Bret asked knocking on the door.

"Yeah one minute." I said drying my tears and getting a paper towel and cleaning the blood off. I covered my wrist with bracelets and made sure my shorts covered my cuts on my thighs.

I cam out of the bathroom and Bret was there waiting with open arms. I let him hug me and he held me for awhile.

"Crystal knows what we did."

"You're worried aren't you? That she will tell Jace and Shade and Tristan?"

"I just don't wanna lose my band Bret they practically finished raising me."

"I understand what you mean I wouldn't want to lose my band either."

"Im just worried."

"I know but if they find out you can come live with me til it blows over." He said smirking evily.

"You're such a pervert I swear!" I said laughing.

"Come on Andy got Chinese and we are watching a movie."

"Chinese!!!!" Bret smiled and kissed my cheek. We went downstairs and Bullet was waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs.

I scooped her up and held her in my hand gently. I put her on the couch and went to go get my food. I got my container and went to the couch and sat next to Bret and Jace and had Bullet on my lap.

I started eating when Andy popped in the movie. Soon I was done and Bullet was licking my thigh. I found it funny so I didn't care if she did or not.

About half way in the movie Bret put his hand on my thigh. I blushed put then he found my scars.

Busted...again.

Bret jerked me up and dragged me to the kitchen and sat me on the counter. He got a wet paper towel and dabbed the scars. I flinched at every dab.