Love, Music, And Heartbreak.

Silence Is No Longer Here

He sat there looking at me when I said that.

"I love you too...." He replied and leaned down and kissed me gently and firmly. Those lips. I dreamt of those lips in captivity. I wish I could kiss them till I died. In that case I'd actually be ok with dying. I love him. He pulled away and shut his eyes biting his lips hard as in punishment. He regretted the kiss. He cheated on his girlfriend and he knows it.

I sighed and looked out the window to my side. Things will never be the same. I wanna go home. But I have to spend one more fucking night in here. I know Bret got me through what Sierra and Trey did but now I don't wanna be in the same room with him. He's in love. But not with me.

"Go.." I said quietly.

"What?" he asked confused as he gripped my hand tighter.

"Go the fuck back to her!" I yelled and bit my already busted lip because I realized I sounded terrible to the one I love. He's in love and was happy. Let him go Scar...let him go. He watched my face and caressed it as he stood and went into the hallway to talk to Cassie.

Cody came back in and I faked a smile as he sat on my bed. I scooted over and let him lay next to me as I told him what just happened between me and Bret.

"At least he told you hon." He said as he ran his thumb over the scars on my wrists that were caused by Sierra.

"I know. But hes happy. He should stay that way."

"Hey at least you got me!?"

"Yeah. And the band."

"Rayna is a bitch anyway."

"Who?"

"Bret's girlfriend."

"Oh. Didn't know her name."

"She's a model and photographer."

"Oh...that explains that I guess, huh?"

"You're more beautiful than any model love. Trust me." I faked smiled and Jace came in with sad eyes as he tried to make me happy.

"So any tours coming up?"

"Yeah actually. Vans Warped Tour." My mouth dropped.

"What!?"

"Yeah we released the album we recorded before you got kidnapped." I hugged him tight.

"Hey Jace isn't The Relapse Symphony going too?" Cody asked and Jace shot daggers with his eyes if it was possible.

"Yeah. Sadly."

"Guys! Its ok! Really! I miss Brandon and Tyler and Alex and JC anyway." Cody's eyes widened and whistled while avoiding eye contact.

"What!? What Happened???" I asked looking at Jace.

"Tyler left. So did Brandon. And Alex."

"Oh."

"Ray Miller is a new member. They have a temp bassist and drummer for warped though. Tommy and Adam I believe. " Cody spoke.

I looked at the door and saw Bret staring at me and watching me. Those eyes. I miss them. But they aren't mine.

"Jace. Close the door." I said softly and he looked at the door and understood as he got up and closed the door. I can't stand it. Cody said he'd stay with me for the night while others headed for the hotel across the street. I can go home tomorrow. Wait...i guess that means the band house. Jace and Cassie moved out of there so its only Tristen and Shade and Crystal.Poor Crystal having to deal with those two.

I laid on the bed on Cody's phone. He let me borrow it to get on my Twitter. I tweeted out to let my fans know I was back and that I will be on the Warped date. I need a new phone. I heard the S6 is out. I cuddled Cody as I slept. At least hes here.

*******Bret's POV***********

I can't sleep. Not without seeing her again to make sure this isn't some dream. It was 1 a.m. and everyone was asleep. I got up and pulled on my jeans and shirt. I grabbed my hotel key and I walked out the door. I went for the elevator and itched to be there already. I love Rayna...I really do. But Scar...I've known her forever and I love her. I sighed and bit at my lip rings. I walked across the street and went back to her room.

I opened the door and saw Cody next to her and they were sleeping like me and her used to sleep. she'd lay her head on my chest and our legs would be entangled. Rayna doesn't like sleeping on my chest. I miss that. I sat in the beside chair and watched her chest move up and down. I just now realized her scars on her wrists. Sierra did that not her. She hung on for life because of me...

I felt terrible for having to tell her she hoped for nothing. Rayna has been calling me nonstop since I left with mad voicemails and worried texts. I finally just turned my phone off. If i wasn't such a dick I'd be next to her right now....not Cody. Her hair was still perfect and so was her face even though she had bruises.

She was practically skin and bones like when she starved herself. Sierra put her through all the self harm and abuse she been through her entire life in one whole year. I wish I never was ever with that bitch and this wouldn't be happening. God I love Scar....

I stood up slowly feeling weak in her presence and I cupped her cheek and kissed her cheek. I know I shouldn't have but i couldn't help it. i couldn't help it when I kissed her either. My love. I sighed and left for the hotel again....

What am i doing with my life.....

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Hey guys! I forgot to tell you I met Bret in person! and JC! at Nashville warped Date! I also saw BVB and met Ben Bruce!

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