Letters To Louis // l.t.

January 10th, 2010 - letter 2

Dear Louis,

Why don't you notice me? Why am I never good enough for you? Why? I just want to be good enough for you. I really just want to be good enough for you. Why am I not good enough? I try so hard. I really do. Everyone says that you aren't one of the best boys to go after because your standards are so low and you'd go after anything that resembles a girl so if that's true then why aren't I good enough for you? Why don't you go after me? 

You make me feel fat and ugly and worthless. You make me feel as if I should stop eating and when I get those feelings I feel like I want to just eat and eat and eat. Thankfully though I've gotten self control now. Before when things would get like this I'd just eat and eat and eat, but now I don't. Because now I know that eating very little is making me skinny. 

Am I worth your time yet?

I'm starting to feel my hip bones.

Am I worth you yet?

Please say I am. Please.

-Annabelle