September 12th, 2010 - letter 27

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by onetreehills

by onetreehills

Dear Louis,

I hate you! I hate you! I can't believe you! I hate you! I hate you!

You ruined me! You ruined my life! You're a monster and I hate you! I opened up to you and you judged me! How dare you! How dare you judge me after everything! After you've done the same! I hate you!

Fame changed you.

How dare you. How could you? How could you yell at me when I came to you for help in the first place?! How could you scold me and yell at me and tell me I'm a screwed up mess, because I cut and am bulimic?! How could you say you give up on me?! How could you say you're done with me and all my screwed up problems?! How could you?! HOW COULD YOU?! How could you do that in front of your friends?!

All I did was whisper in your ear that I needed you as a foolish last attempt, but then you sighed as if you were annoyed and asked if it is about my problems? I timidly nodded my head yes and then you blew up!

How could you?!

I OPENED UP TO YOU!! I LOVE YOU! I NEEDED YOU! I LET YOU SAVE ME! I GAVE MYSELF TO YOU, HEART AND ALL! I BELIEVED THAT YOU WERE GOING TO BE THE ONE TO SAVE ME!! I BELIEVED IN YOU!!

Well I guess it is foolish to put your last beilef of hope in yourself in someone else. Especially someone as ignorant and stupid and foolish and idiotic as you!

I NEEDED YOU!

I can't believe you! I hate you! You, Louis Tomlinson, are the most stupid, self-centered jerk and the biggest player that I've ever met! Everyone was right about you in school! Everyone was right!

I HATE YOU!

I need you. I love you. I really really believed you could save me. I really believed you were starting to love me. I really believed.

I believed.

-Annabelle

{omgomgomgomgomg. so imagine Jennifer Lawrence crying and her voice when she crys and her voice when she feels like she is giving up. official song for Letters To Louis is Say Something by A Great Big World. you'll see how perfectly it fits when the story is coming to a close. OMG COMMENT AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK. -A x}