Letters To Louis // l.t.

January 10th, 2011 - letter 50

Dear Louis,

I don't understand. How are you crying your eyes out and blubbering out marriage proposals one day and then smiling and laughing the next? I don't understand and I'm getting so scared.

The therapist says you've been ditching the sessions, I've checked your pill container and you haven't taken your pills in days, you're having rapid mood swings, you're shutting me out, you're.... gone.

I've sat in your room with you for hours yet you still don't tell me anything. I stopped dating Noah yet you still don't truly believe that I love you. I've stopped my whole life for you yet you still don't believe I'd die without you.

I'm so scared that you're going to leave me, Louis. I don't have anyone to talk to about this. The boys still hate me and Finley is still mad at me too for some reason.

I'm so sad and scared and I need you, but you're gone, Lou.

-Belle

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THERE IS ONE MORE LETTER TILL THE BAM EVERYONE.

THE NEXT LETTER IS SHORT. SHOULD I DOUBLE OR TRIPLE UPDATE TODAY?

I DONT LNOW BUT I'M FREAKING OUT. -A x