Letters To Louis // l.t.

April 20th, 2010 - letter 18

Dear Louis,

I wonder if one day you'll ever love me back. I hope you will. Just like I hope you have as much fun living your dream as I had helping you reach for it. 

I'm really going to miss you. Right now you're out with your other friends and I'm home alone, sipping hot chocolate, watching The Vow and writing in this letter book just thinking about how much I'll miss you and how quickly you'll forget me. In a way our story will kind of be like The Vow. 

I just don't want you to forget me. 

You make me feel alive and happy and like I'm worth something. You make me feel. I can't lose you. I don't want to lose you. You make me be someone I've always wanted to be. You turn me into this crazy, wild, stupid person who I absolutely adore. I can't lose you.

What should I do? I love you and I want to stay your friend, but maybe... I don't know, maybe I should just leave. Maybe I should stop being your friend. Maybe that's the best option for both of us so then it will keep me from getting hurt and it will keep you from.... well I really don't know. I'm sure it will keep you from something though. 

I love you. I'm going to miss you. I really do care about you. 

Maybe I should've never been your friend in the first place. All I do is bring you down and hold you back. Cutting me off from you is the best option. I'm really sorry for all of the stuff I've put you through. 

I always wished one day you'd say you love me back, but you never did. 

I love you, Lou. I'll miss you.

-Annabelle

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hehehe hi.

so Belle didn't see the note Lou left for her at the end of the other letter in case you didn't know. 

well you should legit comment and vote for me, k? k.

love you all my lovies.

-A x