Letters To Louis // l.t.

May 15th, 2010 - letter 20

Dear Louis,

I don't know what to do! I don't know what to do! I'm trying not to cut, but I'm failing. I mean I already hurt you so why not just slaughter the whole thing? 

I'm sorry! I made such a huge mistake, Louis! I love you! I was just trying to protect you! I'm an awful mess who only wrecks everything and everyone. I'm sorry!

I don't want to try to win you back though. I don't deserve you and I sure don't want to deal with the embarrassment of you laughing in my face. 

I love you, Lou, and I'm so sorry.

Gosh, do I want to end it all. I'm such a screw up! I'm just- I'm just such a screw up. I'm such a horrible person. I'm such a... I don't know. There isn't a word that can discribe how awful I am. 

I'm so, so, so sorry, Louis. I love you, but tonight is the end. Tonight I end it all. 

I love you and I'm so sorry I screwed up so bad.

Without you I feel so alone. I feel so worthless and like a failure. When I'm not around you, my demons come out and play, and it's just all gotten too much. I'm done. 

Tonight is the night where it all ends. Where all my loneliness ends, where all my failing ends, where all the voices finally shut up, where I finally stop feeling plain, where I finally stop screwing up.

I know your life will be so much better without me.

I love you, Louis. 

I'll forever be 'Your Belle'.

-Annabelle

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AN - IMPORTANT READ THIS:

omg i'm so excited for the next chappy.

so y'all have two options of what can happen, BUT i will not tell you what they are. You must pick either 1 or 2.

if you don't vote or pick someone then i'll be mad at you forever.

i love you all! thank you so much for the feedback this story has gotten and for getting me ranked and omg thank you.

fyi: this book will have either 50 or over 50 chapters. i know people are probably wondering how long this will go on for, well i do have a lot planned and since this book is in letter form it takes longer to tell the story. i hope you all will go along for the ride with me <3

dedicated to: Harrystagrams cause she wanted a dedication.

-A x