August 6th, 2010 - letter 25

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by onetreehills

by onetreehills

Dear Louis,

You've made time to see me. I feel guilty though, because it's cutting into your resting time; you keep insisting for me to come though.

Three days after I visited you, you got voted off, but then in a happy for you, sad yet happy for me turn of events you got put back on the X-Factor. But in a band.

I'm proud of you! It's just my selfishness coming back is all. I'm happy for you and proud of you. From what I can tell you love your new found band mates and are best buds with them all. I'm starting to feel replaced if we're being honest. Especially by Harry.

They're all nice and happy and funny and they all like me too. They've given me their phone numbers, we text and talk, we're friends, but I still wish that it was just me and you.

I've visited you 6 times and counting. You're starting, no, you have noticed a difference in me. You say I'm starting to look very skinny, too skinny, but I know that's a lie. I'm still fat ol' me. You say you notice that I've been wearing long sleeves far too much, but I just say that it's because I'm cold. You barely even believe me.

I will not open up to you and let you in again. I will not. I forbid it.

I miss you so much. Gosh I sound like a broken recorded.

You've been doing amazing! You're singing has really improved and you still sound like an angel, just an even better angel. You're friends sing like angels as well, but you are the best singing angel in my opinion.

You've also accumulated a lot of fans as well. Girl fans who fawn over you and try to kiss you and shout out marriage proposals at you. Ironic how they get more attention from you in 2 seconds then I ever did in our first year of school.

Louis, you're having so much fun without me. Even with me you are still having more fun then when it was just me and you. When you're friends make jokes you laugh and then return a joke yourself as I sink back into the soft chairs in the living area, going unnoticed and unwanted.

No one even gives me a sideways glance.

I guess I should've expected it though, I mean I'm nothing special. It was a wonder that we were even friends in the first place, it was foolish of me to think that we would still be friends now when you are becoming famous with hundreds of fans and four other lads who are way better friends to you then I ever was.

I suppose we will be saying goodbye soon, now won't we?

It still hurts though.

-Annabelle

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A/N READ THIS OR I WILL BE MAD:

hihihi!

thank you so much for all the feedback and votes and WOW!! thank you guys! y'all are angels and i love you guys so much. THANK YOU.

i have noticed that a lot of people can relate to Annabelle and I would just like to say that if you ever need someone to talk to then I am here for you. <3

i have started crying therapy. i will put the link in the chat box and it is also in the external link located right below the cover.

i found this GIF by reading Chocolate Milk by the amazing CherieHarry. you should read it. love you all. thank you, cupcakes.

-A x

LINK: http://www.wattpad.com/forums/vanilla/discussion/705961/crying-therapy