Letters To Louis // l.t.

December 17th, 2010 - letter 44

Dear Annabelle,

I'm trying.... I'm really trying.

I'm sorry I'm such a distraction to you, but you know what it feels like. You know what it feels like to want to cut off everyone and everything and just leave it all behind. You know better than anyone.

Overwhelmed is a mild word to describe how I'm feeling. With everything from rehearsals to everyday things to haters to.... you becoming an independent person. I guess it's just weird not having you around and I miss you, so I want to push you away.

Make sense?

I didn't think so.

But I do miss you, and it's hard, so hard to watch you hold Noah's hand and kiss him and not want to push you away more. Sometimes I think I should just give up. He's better than me, more handsome, more loving, and he has you, which means him ten times better than me.

I was there for you, Belle. I was there when you needed me. He just happens to show up somewhere along the way and sweep you off your feet; the one and only thing I've been trying to do this whole time. It eats me from the inside out that he can have you after this short period of time when I've been there, when I've been through everything- and nothing.

You confuse me.

I'm sorry if this is far from legible. My teardrops are causing the ink to smear. I would start all over but it wouldn't do any good. I would just cry more and ruin more paper.

I love you so much, Belle.

Am I worth your time yet?

Am I worth you yet?

-Louis

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so the winners are:

(1) oopsea!

(2) foodmood!

and (3) FlyWithMe23!

The winners work will not be shown in order, but their work will be shown. oopsea your work will be shown later on because i have a plan!

The work being shown now is FlyWithMe23's work.

Everyone's entries were so amazing and fabulous and even if I didn't pick yours I still loved it! please don't be hard on yourself.

Congrat to the winners! Thank you all!

-A x