Letters To Louis // l.t.

October 26th, 2010 - letter 36

Dear Louis,

"You aren't going out or doing anything at all, Belle! You need to do something!" 

"Louis, do you know how hard this all is for me? Being thrown into a new, strange place expected to mingle and be happy as you are breaking down inside and trying your hardest to eat and not cut? And keep the food down? No! You don't! So don't you dare jump on me about "making friends"!"

"Belle, sweetheart, I'm sorry I just-"

"I know, I know. You want me to be happy and have friends for when you aren't around. I know." 

"Will you at least come to the Halloween party with me? Please?"

"Fine."

"Thank you!"

And that, my dear, is how you talked me into going to a stupid Halloween party. That is also how you talked me into going costume shopping with you and four other idiots. 

That was a fun trip! Not. I never thought that five teenage boys could whine and fight and complain and bicker over every little thing! Goodness, it was awful! All I heard was "he stole my cart!" "well he stole my costume!" "they don't have my size!" "does this make me look fat?" "stop touching me!" "ANNABELLE!". Never doing that again! Dear lord!

Anyways you said you wanted to surprise me with an outfit, you said you knew my size and everything so I let you. You said I will receive it on Halloween when it is time to get ready. 

I'm nervous and I don't want to go and I just get a bad feeling about that whole night.

I really wish you weren't making me go. I wish you'd just understand that I cannot handle interacting with people and I cannot handle pretending to be happy for a whole night and I cannot handle judging looks and whispering and pointing and staring and I just cannot handle it! I can't handle any of it, Lou! I burst into tears just thinking about it! 

I don't want to go!

Forget it, Louis. I hope you know that this is causing me to go into a frenzy. I'm panicking and freaking out and it's all because of you!

I hate this!

-Anna

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